#askpillow

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Birfday 🎂🎉

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Y'all we old 😂😭

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Dudes he deleted his profile 😂

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Is...

Is he trying to pay me for ass pics? Is that what's happening right now?

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Even if I never write Cas again, he will always be my favorite and I will never be happy with the show's treatment of him

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I am the absolute worst person and I hate myself so much right now.

Not only is my person in jail for something that he didn't do, not only did we just have and lose our first child two months ago, but now...

Now I've gone and done something stupid. Fun, but very, very stupid. And I didn't even have his permission to do it. Like fuck.

What did I do? I fucked another guy. I had asked for my person's permission to do so of course, but I did this before I got it.

And I just... God I'm so fucking dumb. I honestly wanted to die when I first started driving home and was crying because I felt so terrible. I mean, I always say that I don't regret anything because regret is a waste of time, but...

I do regret this. As fun as it was, I regret it. I gave in to my built up hormones and fucked someone that I am not in a relationship with and without my person's consent.

Were I not currently in the already fucked up mess of a situation that I'm in, I wouldn't feel so bad. But I am and I do.

And I don't know what to do now. I know logically that I should confess to my person what happened and accept anything that is said to or about me, but... He would never forgive me, and he's already in a bad place, I don't need to put him in a worse one.

I just... I don't know what to do.

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Alright! Besides a couple writing requests I'm still trying to figure out and some private conversations I don't have the heart to delete, my inbox is now cleared out! I will be setting up a queue before I log, so at least my personal isn't completely empty and I hope you all have a wonderful day!