First off, oh my gosh I swear I did not abandoned this account. I have had a lot going on in my personal life that has prevented me from writing as well as dealing with having to help my horse cross the rainbow road since he was not doing well. It does help when people request me stuff that is within the hyperfixation I am into at the moment which is Death Note but I for real need to do more writing. I should be back for now but ANYWAYS-
These headcanons are for a very special mutual of mine and I hope you enjoy it! @tragicprpljunpei
And I know anxiety affects everyone differently, coming from someone who has it, so I tried to be inclusive in this one the best that I can so I hope y'all enjoy it!
@shujiaihara @kittyundercover1
Touta Matsuda, as we all know, can be a bit silly and impulsive sometimes but he would literally do anything for his significant other.
The second you tell him you have anxiety though, he is quick to say: "Anxiety? Like panic attacks and such? Well then how can I help with that?"
Matsuda would even have some anxiety about trying to help and manage with your anxiety but it is only because he wants to be the best for you and help you out as best as he could even if it makes him frazzled or overwhelmed sometimes.
He would see the signs of a silent shutdown very quickly, whether you talk a lot or don't in general, he sees you disassociate very quickly or just staring off. Matsuda would quietly hold your hand or hug you, whichever you prefer and talk to you very softly during the whole thing.
"I am here." "Do you need something?" *very faintly runs his fingers over your knuckles and arm" "Everything is okay."
Or in a public setting if a panic attack or even a little bit of anxiety starts to settle in, Matsuda wants you to try and warn him in advance as much as you can or as soon as you can so he could help you out. You have told him how anxiety feels and it is not a fun feeling so he would do anything to try and help you out. If Matsuda could, he would take the pain away from you and have him deal with it only if it meant you didn't have to.
As you are holding Matsuda's hand, Matsuda could feel your hand ever so slightly shaking, he turns to look and watch your expressions and could see anxiety start to boil up. He immediately takes you to a quieter area and has you sit down so you don't pass out.
"Breathe along with me, okay? One, two, three, oh my goodness, you are doing so well!"
He always makes sure to buy you a sweet treat afterwards and is constantly praising you for doing a good job at keeping calm.
Feeling even scared for the future? Matsuda is there and he always switches it up.
"Hey, remember that you wanted to go to the city one day? Think about that. I will spoil you rotten that day!" "What about that new tv show you wanted to watch together? I will prepare fresh popcorn for when it comes out!" "Everything is going to be okay, hun."
Cuddles are a must. Whether you are anxious or not, it is always needed. Matsuda is a very physical person but will pull back if you are too anxious or overwhelmed, he just wants to make sure you are okay and have all of the help that you need.
"Do you need a hug? No? Or do you want me to hold your hand? Or go away completely?" He says that last part to make you laugh which works every time. He settles on sitting close by you and then you decide when you want him to hug and hold you.
But if you need a hug or cuddle in that moment then he is doing it. He will spoon you or let you lay your head in his lap as he soothes his fingers through your hair and pet your forehead, whatever you want him to do he will do.
Speaking of jokes, Matsuda will always crack a joke, when it is appropriate, to you to try and make you laugh or feel better inside from said anxiety. They mostly consist of bad dad jokes so be prepared for that.
If you especially had a hard day in general from work, thinking about the load at home can make you more anxious. Matsuda makes L let him leave home early so he could beat you home and clean the house, do any chores that need to be done and attempt to cook. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. When it does work, its a 10/10 perfect gourmet meal. And when it doesn't work, he is ordering takeout from your favorite place. Either way, the table is spread with some candles and your favorites flowers as well as your favorite alcohol or soda if you don't drink.
If you really are full of anxiety and end up shutting down, Matsuda is pampering you. He is making food for you and will feed it to you in full gentlemen fashion. And then after that he is throwing your favorite pajamas in the dryer while he runs a bath for you. Bubbles or not, it's your choice. He helps you out of your clothes softly and helps you into the tub. Matsuda chooses your favorite scented soap as he washes your back, making sure you smell nice and are clean, the soothing touch from the sponge and his beaming smile to you, helps you slowly come out of the anxiety shell. Once the bath is done, he helps you back out, dries you up with a towel and helps you into your favorite pajamas. Free cuddles all night long in bed.
Nocturnal anxiety attacks are the worst. Matsuda has told you time and time again that if you wake up with an anxiety attack then he wants you to wake him up and he won't be mad. Matsuda would never live with himself if you woke up and dealt with an anxiety attack alone. He doesn't care about the Kira case or nothing..
A new headcanon(s) I have for Mogi because I dont see him enough on here..
Mogi had a tough upbringing growing up, its why as an adult he has a hard time speaking up in general but knows when to speak up when someome is talking to him or when he really needs to speak.
Mogi has a younger sister who looks like him, like twin like even though they arent twins. I base her off of Akane Owari from Danganronpa 2 with her name being Aira Mogi.
After high school, once in college to be a police officer, Mogi got all of his partying out of the way and by partying I mean just drinking and hanging out with friends, no drugs or sleeping around with people because despite not growing up religious, he would be saving himself for his significant other in the future. He takes intimacy seriously both regular and sexual intimacy.
He was always a bigger dude physically but as he got older he got bulkier and more muscular due to the job and such.
