@assassimp asked : you don't secretly hate me, right?
it is one of those statements that stolas suspects blitzø would rather he play off. a nice, easy of course not so that blitzø can move on to something more fun and less real. but blitzø's gotten better at sitting in these moments, uncomfortable as they are ; stolas, he likes to wallow, and most of all, he likes to wallow in company, so there's always room for blitzø's fears. blitzø's all but in his lap, and he has to crane his neck to look at him ( easier for him than for blitzø, both physically and emotionally, if he were making assumptions ). "love, do you think me capable of secretly hating anyone? maybe years ago," when misery was his default, and he kept every cruel thought buried deep down, "but since meeting you -- you know everything i think of you, both good and bad. and you've seen how much it took for us to get here. don't you think i would've just stayed where i was if i thought there was any chance i might someday hate you?"









