Hello everyone, I don’t know how many people will actually read this but the semester is almost ending and I need to get this off my chest. Here it goes, I started the semester taking 5 courses, I now am taking 3 courses and I’m almost sure I will fail two of them. This isn’t my brightest semester or year for that matter. I had a lot of academic struggles and other issues. This has taken a toll on my mental health. In the past I’ve struggled because I lacked motivation and didn’t care much, now it’s quite the opposite and care too much, I put this immense pressure on me that I have to be perfect. I often compare myself to others, like my best friend who works two jobs and goes to school. Of course, her grades are down the floor and she’s constantly tired. But mentally she seems fine, and I then feel so weak. I’ve had a headache all day, I have an exam tomorrow at 3pm that I haven’t studied for and a speech to present. Currently, my life feels so helpless, but I hope everyone understands something. There is a balance you need to be part of. I didn’t know about it until now. So if you feel like you hit rock bottom, you’re not alone. Please don’t fall under the pressure of a studyblr/ gram and think that everyone has beautiful notes so they must have beautiful lives and grades. Be there for you first, the follower count and likes/ reblogs don’t matter at the end of the day. You and your mental health do. Try your best and only your best because you can’t do better than your best.
I don’t have many online friends, but if you ever need someone to talk to, my messages are always open for you. My instagram is @astro_mickey so you can also dm me there xx