Jul 30, 2020
suddenly feeling very insecure in my internet spaces
#see i have a pattern ive established#in order to make sure i socialize online if not in person#i go into new servers#become friendly and chill#and then if i start to feel a bit out of place#i dip#well#the current server i'm in i don't really want to leave#i like it and all of the people#but i'm continously feeling insecure and today we introduced a new feeling#shame#which i wasn't aware i still could feel shame#at present actions#and im really lonely#sad and alone a lot#and i can't really afford to lose what little people i like to general ickiness#i'm tired#my eyes are heavy#and i want to go home#i desperately want to go home#no fight today#just sadness#vent#rant#negative#also im like. losing touch with people i actually really like and care about?#its so hard to communicate#its so hard to put myself out there#im#sigh