AN: This is heavily based on something that happened to me once, hits too close to home heh, it's written really fast, and definitely not my best work, but enjoy regardless<3
Warnings: Uhhh, cigarettes, alcohol, reader's friend is a dick and doesn't know it, treating reader like shit:(( mentions of hooking up, not anything in detail!! NOT PROOFREAD!
Walking over to your friend late at night, had you in a lot of thoughts, and to be honest, it was messy, everything was messy.
You've been in love with Hongjoong for almost a year.
You almost got into a relationship with him but then something changed, it was weird and super unexpected and you never really understood why, your two friends Yunho and Mina were the ones to tell you that he was interested in someone else and didn't tell you, needless to say, you were devastated.
the feelings for him would eventually slow down, but it's hard, especially after what you two have previously been up to, occasionally making out and teasing each other about everything.
"Hi!!" Mina said as she hugged you tight.
"Aren't you cold? It's super cold… Come in!" She said as you followed her inside her apartment, the familiar smell of cigarettes filled almost her entire apartment, and her 2 cats greeted you with countless meows.
"Tell me, how have you been?" She asked you as you sat in the bed and she made herself comfortable on her couch.
"Stressed, but I'm okay. School is really taking up a lot of my time, which is why I haven't been able to hang out with you guys a lot" You said, frowning a little.
Your group was CHAOS. there was Hongjoong who has been seeing Chaewon on and off for quite some time, you two actually had a decent friendship, sometimes talking about how shitty everything was and how in sync you were. Yeosang, who has been seeing Mina for about a year, never made anything official though. Wooyoung, who was everyone's friend and a total mood-maker. then there's you and Yunho, you guys were like siblings, sharing everything together even TMI stuff. You were the one who introduced Yunho to the group a year after you matched with Hongjoong on a dating app.
"I get that, you haven't really been with a lot from the group, right? Hongjoong is almost always in here after he's done talking with Chae" She said, asking if you wanted a puff, you declined tho, not really feeling the vibe.
"No not really, I've not even been able to make time with Yunho" You knew Mina and Hongjoong have history, but you didn't like to talk about it, understandable enough.
She handed you a glass of wine which you happily accepted, downing it and getting it refilled.
After a lot of catching up and talking about the chaos that's been happening, you eventually got into a talk about romance.
"I mean I haven't even kissed anyone in so long, I don't remember who was the last one," You said jokingly, trying to lighten up the mood.
"Mine was yesterday with Hongjoong" Your stomach twisted at her words, but somehow you remained calm, not letting any feelings get to your face, which honestly resulted in you looking kinda bored.
You simply nodded, talking about a lot of other stuff when Mina suddenly looked at you.
"You know how I've been with Yeosang and we promised not to be with anyone else right?" She asked, you nodded.
"Can you keep a secret?" She said and you nodded again, you had an idea what was gonna happen, but you really hoped it was just you overthinking.
"I slept with Hongjoong" That's it. You were disappointed in her, she was supposed to be one of your best friends yet she slept with the guy she knew you had a massive crush on. Heck, she even shipped you guys from the start!! She was whipped for you both to get together… And now this? You still didn't let any emotion form in your face.
"Oh, nice" Was all you muttered, romance has never been something you were lucky in, so it's no secret, you even predicted this.
"You don't have any reaction?" She tilted her head at you "I was scared to make you sad, or hurt, or angry.." She said.
"No it's okay, It's fine really. I think my feelings have died down and again, we haven't really been talking a lot lately" Lies, well not all of them. But it certainly wasn't fine.
The night went by fast, looking at the clock. 2:38 am.
You were tired, finally finding the courage to go home. You said your goodbye to her, leaving the complex quietly, listening to music as you passed by Hongjoong and Chaewon, smiling and talking a little with Chaewon before Hongjoong interrupted the conversation.
"Hey uh… Can we talk?" He said, looking at you. A smile and a wave to Chae as she went inside her apartment while you and Hongjoong stood outside in the fresh cold air.
"I just… I wanna say I'm sorry for not talking with you the last few weeks, and not coming home to you as I promised…" He said, taking your hand in his. You missed him, you really did. But all of this has been fucking with your head a lot.
"It's fine Joong, really. It happens to the best of us, right? And you seem to be busy enough with them that I'm not a priority at all and I just gotta accept that" You finally snapped at him.
"Joong. I'm tired and I just wanna go home and sleep, contact me another time and we can talk but right now I'm not in the mood at all" You said as you walked away hearing him yell he was sorry at you, you knew he wasn't and your feelings didn't matter to him, the thing with Mina just confirmed it.
So here you are, walking home with music playing way too loud in your ears, not feeling like crying as you mostly felt empty.
All you wanted was to do was escape this city, and you knew that if you had the money you had been gone for long, but the only thing you could do now was to get home safely.
An: It's been way too long since I last wrote a fic so this is probably a little ouff, hope you enjoy it anyways!!
"Please, as if I'd wanna be with you anyways, you're not anything else than a crying mess. "
That was the last thing you heard from your now ex-partner before closing the windows of your parent's car you borrowed over the weekend to actually visit your partner. but now you're driving away as fast as possible, probably over to San, no negative thought could enter your head and it was making you crazy.
"Perfect." You mumbled as 'Ily' by The Rose popped up on the radio, tears leaving your eyes making it harder to drive in the already pouring rain.
-
After knocking violently on San's door for 2 minutes he finally came to the door.
"OKAY OKAY OKAY I'M COMING!!" You could hear from the other side, steps getting closer and closer to the door.
"WH- Oh my god y/n are you okay???" San's face went from annoyance from being woke up by the knocking to as if he'd just seen a ghost.
"No." Was all that managed to escape your mouth as you just silently stood there, dripping from the rain and as stiff as a tree, sobbing quietly.
"What happened?? Did they do anything?? WAIT wasn't this the supposed that was reserved to spend the weekend with them????" San couldn't stay quiet and filled your head up with questions.
"Can I come insi-" You didn't get to finish your sentence as San literally dragged you inside after that, wrapping you in a hug not caring if he'd get soaked as well, seeing you cry broke his heart.
-
"Wait okay so after all this time, your relationship was just a bet? What in the 2000's rom-com is this..." San said, making you both laugh a little.
"Yeah, it's weird, right? Some people apparently just can't seem to be honest, honestly making it through half a year impressed me." You said, not tearing up as much, sipping on the hot beverage San made you, he even let you borrow his giant hoodie and made the couch comfy with blankets.
-
Neither you nor San checked the clock and before you knew it, the clock was 3 am and you were laughing at stupid memories.
"Okay but remember when Yunho made that challenge with Yeonjun and they both ended up in detention because the teachers caught them?" You said, San laughing so much his stomach started hurting.
"Good times." He said, snuggling closer to you, eventually making you both feel tired, you eventually both ended up falling asleep on the couch in a weird but comfy sleeping position that'll probably make your body hurt in the morning.
-
Waking up to each other wasn't something odd, you've been having sleepovers or cuddling countless times.
"Morning." You said in union, smiling to each other.
"Wanna go get brunch and ice cream after? Heard Seonghwa is covering the shift today so if we're lucky we'll get a discount!" He said, you nodded excitedly.
You grabbed some clothes you knew you had at his place and borrowed a jacket and off you were to spend a sunny day together, trying to forget about your dickhead of an ex, at least you had your best friend to comfort you, always.
