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Sunny Hill - Pray // Cry for me and i’m so sorryIt spreads and spreads,the more I grieve over youPlease hold me again

"I’m tired of you." She said the words with ease as she whisper them to herself every night before she went to sleep, her eyes going over his weak form, she dipped the rag in hot water and wiped it over his face, going slowly as if that could get her to stop pitting him a little bit more, but it couldn’t, she still changed the water and watched out for him.

"I hate you, I want you to know that." She turned her back and opened up various draws, he tried to whisper something but she didn’t care, was it wrong to tell an already dying person, you wished they would hurry up? Maybe, but she didn’t care not when he could see the way she looked at him. She gave up almost everything for him, everything but her heart a second time.

She sighed, letting her hands linger in the bowl while she stared off, remembering the past. The first time Taemin talked to her was to tell her about how he hated, and how she was a fuck up from TRC, but faltered when as she was ranting, Tiger JK came out and gave her a fist bump, they chatted and she kept walking, she was starting to learn Jiwon was poison. After several sorries and small talking, they started something like a friendship, and a little bit after that something called romance, she didn’t trust it at first and keep her distance but the dancing king won her over.

And they started dating, she was able to get some work done, working with a few artist and appearing music videos, they kept the relationship under wraps, never under raps, so much that when the rumor of Jiwon and Taemin dating she brushed it off, because she loved him. And when it turned out to be true, she dropped him, with ease as if nothing had happened. Because it hurt, not even with Jinhwan did she start to slack in her studies, not even with Jinhwan did she start to fail behind in lessons and her debut seemed far way.

She went out of her way to avoid them, maybe she missed something, maybe it was in her head. But days turned to weeks, and weeks turned to months. She couldn’t look her sister in the eye, she never thought she would just up and date someone like that but they weren’t really sisters.

And every time Taemin tried to talk to them, she would serve him and keep walking, who was he anyway? Until she found out Taemin had cancer, it rocked her world and she wanted to run to him, she wanted to hold him but she remembered the toxic mess he was to her, she remembeed how she almost got kicked out of TRC -something he yelled at her for - and stiffened her back.

But as it got worse, he needes someoen to take care of him. Jiwon had to leave for America, and she begged and she begged and begged and seeing him this state dragged her down and she finally said said, be coming a nurse to him. His care started to take over own and sure nurses came and went, when she was at TRC, someone would be with him. She often asked herself why she would do it, even if she knew he answer, she stilled like to ask.

And he got sicker and sicker and sicker, and Jiwon never showed up. People claimed it was to hard to see him in this state but she saw him everyday. What was she really? A monster maybe because she could look him in the car and not care about the yellow skin and think how much she wanted him gone, sometimes he tried to speak, but she would ignore it.

"Just hurry up." She muttered taking her hands out the water and leaving out, at this point she was she didn’t have to say with what.

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Ha:tfelt - Wherever Together / Take my hand I will take youTo the end of the rainbowDon’t be scared let me hold you nowLet’s fly, fly

It had a been about three years since she found Jieun was her younger sister, and it had been wonderful, the two always hung out, they never left each others side, it was just them against and the world and Yubin would have it any other way, no matter the ups and downs, if her sister ever needed something, then she could lean on Yubin, she would do anything for IU.

Even if it meant, learning how to skate so they could join a competition, it was a family thing and IU wanted nothing more then Yubin at herself, so she bought some skates, put on her knee pads and got there, and it was only fun because every time she fell, IU was there to hold her hand. What more could she ask for?

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Mamamoo & K.Will ft Wheesung - Peppermint Chocolate / My coffee chocolate, we’re not just about the sweetness Peppermint chocolate, we’re like the cool, minty sweetness

"Why do you two date? You don't act lovey dovey." Yubin turned to Qri and raised a brow at her, chuckling at the question the girl ask the two. Currently they were on the beach relaxing, Yubin listening to music on her phone and Qri taking selca's as if she needed to save the world that way. Around them couples played in the sand but neither girl had bothered with the other, causing their friend to ask the question.

Qri didn't respond and Yubin laughed, pointing a finger at her girlfriend, she relaxed back into the chair. "She's my peppermint chocolate." Just as she said, it Qri chucked a make up brush at her and Yubin pouted when her skin was hit but she saw the hint of a smile on her girlfriends face, they did they need to act a certain type of way? They knew what was real.

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J. Y Park - You're The One / In my eyes, I only see youIn my ears, I only hear youIn my heart, only you live, so I can’t live without you /

If anything, she learned she wasn’t one to catch feelings for someone she wanted a one off with, because she was smarter then that but this was a tad differen, after she and Joonyoung both debuted, him under Sphere and her under TRC, they had been called together to a collab, a little bit of rock and a little bit of rap. It was her thing.

Only the more she spent time with him, the more she started to like him, they moved together with ease, being of the same mind and thread, it was easy for them to joke and get along, she found herself enjoying the hugs a little bit to much, enjoying the after sex cuddles a little to much, she even stopped talking to him for a bit, but her heart still pounded whenever he was around. And then she said sorry, and they countined on. He’d tease her with with pokes, asking where her boyfriend was and she would blush and brush it off, until he kissed her.

It was strange, it was different but she liked it.

"You can only have eyes for oppa now?" She wanted to smack him for the easy line but she was happy, all but one thing.

"I’m not calling you that."

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Spica - You Dont Love Me / For all this time,I only looked at you and held it inHow could you do this to me? / 

"You shouldn’t have lied." A frown was on Yubin’s face as she stared at Soohyun. She hated lairs and Soohyun was turning out to be the biggest one of them all.

"If you didn’t want to be my friend or even date me, you should have said something." She glanced down at the promise ring the other girl had given her, and took it off, slidng it across the table. "I hate loviing someone who can only talk bad behind my back." She touched her arm, were the scars from the tatto removal could be seen, she saw Soohyun flinch and she stood up.

"Goodbye." Her words came out in a whisper.

"I hate lairs."

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Ha:tfelt - Ain't Nobody/ Tell me who’s the winner now, You are crying and so am I All that’s left is pain Tell me what we gonna do Even know when everything is broken down, I still love you /

It was funny how a few things could change in the course of a few weeks, she had a private talk with the CEO and without a word to some people - of course Bobby, IU, Hana and some others- would know where she was going, but she was wiped from the TRC, gone as if she was never there. She remembered the last person she saw was Jiwon, after a huge argument, and some might think it was because of the girl but she had problems in America with her ral mother, and it took a few weeks to settle, before she knew it she was back in Korea.

Jiwon had made her debut in a trio group and Yubin went back to training, because she had to make up for lost time, but she was a tad unfocused, stress. She told them it was stress.

And she saw Jiwon again, she wanted to reach out to her younger sister but she pulled back because, Jiwon wouldn’t care she never did. She wondered if the girl even cared, that their father had died. A nasty plane crash, while she was away and Yubin wanted to be sadder, in fact she didn’t hid her tears, crying in the bathroom because even if he was crappy, he was still her father. Jiwon had stumbled in, and even tried to ask what was wrong but as soon as the words came out Yubin’s life the girl shut down.

And she was agnry, angry because all the brat did was think about herself. A few more harsh words and she shoved past Jiwon, pushing her into the wall, and left out.

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Two weeks into her own debut, the TRC was rocked, another family member died. Jiwon’s own step father, people rushed to comfort her but Yubin hung back, because they weren’t sisters, just two girls who happened to share a father, they weren’t connected, they weren’t meant to be friends, she found her own sibling in Jieun, that was all she needed. That’s what she told herself to stop feeling back, she would kept telling herself that. 

Still, fate had different plans, the two were coming back from Star King and they had to share a van, it was dark and lonely, Yubin played with the cell phone chain and dried to drown out the youngers crying, but she knew how it felt. To lose someone important, so she climbled into the back seat and stared.

"What are you gonna do laugh?" Jiwon remark came out and Yubin said nothing, just wrapped her arms around the other and after a few minutes the hug was returned, her shoulder started to become wet from the tears but it didn’t matter. This was family, she loved her. It was that simple.

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Wonder Girls - Girlfriend / Is it that easy for you? Is that how you empty me out?Is that how you erase me?Yes, call me crazy but I still can’t forget youSay that I’m talking crazyI won’t remember this tomorrow anyway /

God she hated him.

She hated him for making her feel this way.

Just a few weeks after they broke up, she felt so sure, so sure that this was right, they only faught, it was only anger. Both of them were to busy. But drinking out with her friends, stumbling into her house and pouring another glass of wine, she felt herself looking at a photo album, their pictures filled and she never wanted to burn something but and hold it close to her at the same time so much.

"Jimin?" She said with a hopefull voice, she had made the call, it had only been a few weeks, he couldn’t have moved on.

But she didn’t expect to here him whissper, she didn’t expect to her the voice she loved so much, make her crash and burn. “I’m with my girlfriend right now.” She wanted to say something but the words burned her mouth and she took another swig of her wine. She was confused, because it had only been a few weeks right? He didn’t move on that fast, what was she?

"Why did you pick up the phone!" She yelled it as loud as she could, she she was hurt. "Why didn’t you just ignore me…" Her voice broke as she started to cry, because who did this.

"I love you." The words came out with a whimper, and she dropped the phone, ignoring his calls of hello and then the line went dead.

She used to be his girlfriend.

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After School - Shampoo / If you’ve ever loved another’s fragranceForget about themIn a world without aromasI’ll keep you infatuated with me / 

It sucked seeing your best friend down over a boy, you could say he wasn’t good enough anyway because they needed to cry but she wanted to help her and hug her a lot. It might have been because she had a small crush on Taeyeon. Okay, a huge crush but she couldn’t say anything because as far as she knew Taeyeon only had eyes for dudes.

Still it didn’t stop her from sneaking into Taeyeon’s room and wipping her tears as she cried in her sleep, a fond smile was on her face but she said nothing, instead placing a small kiss on the girls forehead. “I’ll always been okay?”