#auratalks

[auraisdead0]

Hey guys!

Aura here

Long time no see, i lost my old account

[aurastdies]

I think I have finally recovered enough from last quarter to post on here again lol

List of things that happened

Failed my physics final and the whole class, but somehow not the lab

Passed my Calc 2 final but just barely failed the class at like a 68% (needed a 70%)

Got my drivers permit (cars are scary)

Passed Gen Chem 1!!

Started winter quarter

Retaking Calc 2 and taking Gen Chem 2

Passed the first test for both classes!!

World did not implode because I failed two classes, not even on academic probation

Currently awaiting the results of my adhd/autism diagnosis tests

Anyways maybe this will be reassurance for someone, life keeps on a going even if you fail things. I was so terrified that like my whole world would implode and everyone would be so angry and disappointed with me, but like it's totally fine. My parents understood and the world keeps spinning. I am okay. I worked everything out and I am trying again with Calc 2. Physics I have ti wait till fall quarter 2025 to retry due to sequence stuff. I'm really enjoying the current quarter, currently learning thermochemistry which is pretty neat. I turn 20 next month. Life keeps going and I am okay.

[aurastdies]

Every year I think seasonal depression won't hit me and then it does like a freight train lol

I'm up here in WA so we will be getting approximately zero sun for the next 7 months, so my motivation to do anything other than sleep has absolutely evaporated. I was supposed to have an ADHD test today to get diagnosed, but my psychologist has to reschedule, so it remains to be seen. I really just want help for whatever is going on upstairs, because I'm seriously struggling rn to find motivation for anything remotely challenging. Chemistry is going well solely because I actually enjoy studying for it, I even passed my first test with a score higher than the class average!! (Class average was 66.5, I got a 70.5 teehee). Idk studying is hard, and it's mostly my fault because I can't get myself to sit down and do it. Maybe I need to lock my phone up for like 5 hours and see if that helps lol

[aurastdies]

I have been slowly chugging along in school, why are Calc and physics so hard T_T

I have a test on Wednesday and the presidential election is tmmr, boy oh boy this week is not fun

I did vote, and I'm going to (hopefully) lock in and study, but I feel like a bundle of nerves rn

I'm so scared I'm going to fail my classes and that this election outcome isn't going to be good, but I can't do more than I've already done. Just hoping for the best rn

[aurastdies]

Sooooo I did my physics test today and my calculus 2 test yesterday and boy oh boy. Calc went pretty okay, 3 out of 10 felt a little rough but I think I'll pass.

I literally had to say a prayer after my physics test it went so bad. I don't think I've ever had a test that bad before, I don't even think it was hard I just don't understand physics. I'm hoping for a low C. I definitely underestimated it and need to study more for next time. It just sucks because I hate failing and I feel like everyone understands physics more than me. Idk I just feel like I got sucker punched.

I'll get back up tho and keep going to class. Struggling will get me to where I want to be, and I really want my degree.

[aurastdies]

Went to physics today and we learned about what a force is and how to calculate normal force and I think it went pretty well!! I attended the class study session after, and I feel a lot better about the test. It was nice to know I'm not the only one having difficulty with the material and I think I made some friends today!! I've been feeling a little lonely since most of my friends are also busy with work and college, but I feel so much better.

I have my first Calc 2 test tmmr and I feel pretty good about it, gonna study a bit tonight

[aurastdies]

Went to chemistry this morning and learned about electron configurations, which was super cool stuff!! Going to Calc 2 in like 30 mins (5pm classes make me so sleepy). Luckily in physics tmmr we are doing a review session so no new material, hopefully 2d motion will finally click lol

[aurastdies]

Introduction

Hi~!

My name is Aura. I'm 19 years old and currently in my second year of college.

Major: Tentatively considering chemical engineering or chemistry

Hobbies: block printing, video games (stardew valley, league of legends), reading, doomscrolling

Classes: General Chemistry 2, Calculus 2

my goal for this side blog is to hopefully help my study more and to stop procrastinating. also to bitch about classes lol

my main blog is @lavcha so if i follow you it will be from there!

feel free to message or ask me anything~