coming home from The only one I need (on Wattpad) http://w.tt/1NA3M8O Lana was having a hard time with her boyfriend Vic being on tour, but she would have to cope with it to keep him,but she never expected things to get as crazy as they did.
Will there ever be an ... us ? - Austin Carlile Imagine
A/N: *This imagine is based on an idea that popped up in my head and I just felt like writing this. So I hope you enjoy this imagine and now have fun reading it :)
*Also an information: (H/G/N) - stands for “his girlfriends name”
Wind outside blew softly on the leafs of the tree outside, they were slightly shaking. Birds sang their melodies and flew around together like they always do. The weather was typical for the time of the year, warm and sunny. Everything seemed to be in place, everything seemed to be perfect..
But there was one thing that kept my mind busy and it was tearing me apart. Thoughts ran through my head and I wish I could just cut them out.. but I couldn’t.
I got up from my bed and walked into the little kitchen of my apartment to make myself a cup of tea. On the way there a picture on the shelf in the hallway caught my gaze. I took the picture in my hands and slowly felt another tear running down my cheeks. Again.Everything was fine, we had fun, we could talk, we had always a good time, we had .. us.We’ve been best friends since we were little kids, I could always count on him when I had problems, when I lost a friend, when my parents divorced.. He was always my shoulder to cry on. Now he was the one I was crying about.Shaking my head, I put the photograph back to where it was and continued my way to the kitchen. I got there and saw my phone light up, signaling me that I received a new text message.
*Alan* “Hey (Y/N), are you sure you don’t want to come ? I am sure he would like to see you there…”
Yes, maybe he wants to see me. Maybe wants to show me that he is now happy..
I didn’t answer Alan cause he knew I wouldn’t go there and there was nothing he could do to convince me. Austin Carlile, my “best friend” was about to marry his current girlfriend (H/G/N). They were a couple for just a few months, but he said she was the one for him, the one he wants to spend the rest of his life with. It felt like thousands of knives that pierced my heart, the day he told me that he asked her.
Since that day I wasn’t the same. We weren’t the same. I did’t want to say that (H/G/N) isn’t the right for him, but which best friend would say that ? Austin just hung out with her and he slowly spent less time together. At first I was happy for him, but over the weeks I lost my best friend more and more everyday.
The thing is, that he became more that my best friend over the years and I just felt complete with him by my side. Of course he didn’t know, and probably he will never know and never will feel the same way.
The only person that knows about my feelings was Alan. He was there for me all the time, while Austin disappeared from my life.
Today was the day where he said yes to her, yes to a family and a life with her. The pain I felt was horrible. Why can’t he see that I needed him.
All of the boys from Of Mice & Men, Amanda, Jenny, Anouk and even Loniel tried to make me come to the wedding, but I couldn’t and I didn’t want to. I just wanted to stay at home and never leave my apartment again.
It was ten o’clock in the morning, only five hours left till that one moment, where I’ll lose him forever.
After I got my tea ready I went back into my bedroom. My phone buzzed like every 5 minutes, either it were calls or text messages from my friends. I didn’t answer one single call.
I didn’t know if I fell asleep or spent the next hours crying to myself until I heard the doorbell ringing non-stop. “Just leave me alone”, I mumbled to myself and hid my face in the pillow of my bed, not wanting to get up.
”Come on (Y/N), we know you’re at home!”, a familiar voice yelled through the closed door. Alan.
I knew it was no use to ignore him, cause I knew he wouldn’t leave.
Groaning I got up and slowly walked towards the door, opening just a small bit.
”What do you want ?”
He didn’t answer me, just pushed me aside and walked into the apartment.
”What the hell? (Y/N) look at you ? When was the last time you left these rooms”, Alan said and looked at me. Thinking about it quietly, I have to admit, I can’t remember exactly when I was outside or even changed my clothes.
”Alan I … why should I ?”, I answered him and looked down at the ground.
Alan came closer to me and embraced me into a tight hug, while I felt the tears coming back into my eyes.
”I know honey, I know. To be honest I wished he would have chosen you and not (H/G/N)”, he whispered and ran his fingers through my hair, calming me.
Alan also didn’t like (H/G/N) and neither did the other guys. She was just a fake person, trying to change Austin into a person he wasn’t.
We all wished he would have realized how she really is, but he was blind. Blinded by her falsity. (H/G/N) loved Austin for his fame and enjoyed getting all the attention as his girlfriend. She was using him and Austin with all his goodness let that happen.
”Why are you here?”, I asked Alan after a few minutes, as I realized he should have been with Austin now, as he was his best man.
”I wanted to see how you are (Y/N). We all called you but you didn’t answer. We all are worried about you.”, he said, “And you know, I know you don’t want to but I thought maybe you think about going to the wedding could help you”.
"What ? How the hell could it help me when the man I loved for as long as I remember is going to marry this person and probably will forget me? Alan it hurts so fucking much to even think about it" "
I … understand you. I really wished things went different. I just thought he could change his mind, when he sees you there”, Alan said.
”Alan, he didn’t call or wrote me once during the last weeks. He didn’t care about me so why should he care about me today?”, I asked him and I could see in his face that he knew I was right. Austin would never change his mind.
"Well.. I guess I have to go now and help Austin, he probably is already waiting for me at the church", Alan took a look the clock in my hall and hugged me again. I didn’t want to let him go there but it was no use. Nobody could stop this from happening.
”Alright, see you soon”, I whispered into his shoulder as he then let go of me and said his goodbye.
As soon as I closed the door behind Alan, I broke down crying and slipped down the wall. I buried my face in my hands and let out all the tears I had left.
I can’t let this happen, I thought to myself.
In the past I always ran away from all my problems so I didn’t have to face them. That worked well for years but it felt like now it was the time to change something and fight for what meant something to me. I just didn’t know how.
After what felt like hours I collected myself and got up from the floor, stumbling in the bedroom, but not hiding myself in the sheets like I used to do for the last few days. No I walked into the adjoining bathroom.
It has been days since I looked at myself and well.. I looked horrible. Make-up was over my cheeks and my hair was messy in all directions.
I quickly washed my hair and let it hung simply over my shoulders after drying it. I didn’t put on any make-up, I would cry it away anyways, I thought.
Slipping on a jeans and a shirt Austin gave to me on my last birthday, where everything was still fine.
I grabbed my phone and keys and left the apartment. When the door shut, I stopped for a moment and took a deep breath. I had no idea what was waiting for me and what was going to happen, but I didn’t have time to think about a plan. I had to reach the church.
My car was standing in the parking lot, where I left it the last time I used it. I reached it but just as the fate was giving me a sign, the car didn’t start. I tried multiple times but it was no use.
”Fuck it !”
Not thinking about it, I started running. There was only one church here so I knew where the wedding would be.
20 Minutes left …
About ten minutes later, I was still running but I could hear bells started to ring and saw a lot of cars parking where the church was.
White roses where placed everywhere outside the building. It looked amazing, if it wasn’t for (H/G/N) and Austin..
My heart was pounding like crazy and I tried to catch my breath. Then I realized I didn’t know what to do next, I didn’t create a plan before I started running. I just did what my heart told me and it felt right.
I didn’t know what was waiting behind the big wooden doors of the church but I knew that I had to do something.
The door knob in my hands felt like fire that was burning in my hands as I pressed it down. The heavy door opened and creaked as the sun from outside also light up the church.
All of the guests and familiar faces turned around and looked at me, Austin and (H/G/N) looked at me, he was holding her hands and she gave me the death glare.
Austin looked wide eyed at me with his beautiful brown eyes.
Everyone in the room had his eyes all me, but my mouth couldn’t form any words. Never in my life I thought I would be the one who was crashing a wedding.
”Uhm sorry, but we were just about to say the I-do’s. So if you want to take a seat.”, the priest kindly said and gestured to the rows where the audience sat.
"No.. I.. Austin please don’t", was all I could bring out.
”(Y/N) …”, Austin seemed to be as surprised as the rest of the guests were. He let go of (H/G/N)’s hands and just took one step towards me.
”Austin! What the hell ? She shall just sit or leave, we are in the middle of the best day of our lives, remember?”, (H/G/N) got a bit furious and tried to pull Austin back in his previous position. She hated me and didn’t want me to ruin her triumph.
Getting the courage out of nowhere I finally collected myself together and found the words to say.
”Austin.. I don’t want you to marry her. She isn’t the person you might think she is. I want to know you happy with the person you marry but she isn’t the person that will make you happy. I know you won’t believe me but it’s the truth. She loves you for your fame. You know I never let you down, I was your best friend since I remember and I always wanted you to be happy. It is your decision what you do know but I want you to know that I loved you for a few years now, not as a friend or a brother. I love you truthfully as the man I see every night in my dreams. I thought you are the one I will wake up to every morning, the one that catches me when I fall, the one that makes me smile when I’m sad but I know you won’t feel the same way. I’ll always be your friend if you want me to be your friend. All I ask you is to think if you do the right by marrying (H/G/N)”, tears were running down my cheeks as I finished and choked out the last part of my sentence.
All people in the church stared at me with their mouths open. Everyone didn’t expected something like this to happen, but I didn’t care at this point.
By the time I shut my mouth, Austin was walking towards me and as he reached me he took my hands in his. “(Y/N), there’s only one person I can be happy with and this person stands right here in front of me. I always had feelings for you so don’t think anything else. All I wanted was to hear those words from you. I want to be the person you can wake up to and want to be the person that catches you when you fall. I thought I can get over you when I marry (H/G/N) but I never could get you out of my mind. I want you… only you”, Austin admitted but his words couldn’t reach me, so I stood there speechless.
Then something I waited for a long time happened and it caught me off-guard.
Austin pulled me into his arms and pressed his lips against mine, with a passion I never thought that could be possible. It all felt like a dream but as I heard clapping I was pulled back into reality.
Alan and the other ones were standing up and clapping.
(H/G/N) was furious and stormed towards me and Austin.
”So this is it, yes ? You believe this bitch more than me ?! You’re an asshole!”, she screamed into his face and she slapped him into his face. I was about to freak out but Austin just held me back.
"Yes I believe her, cause I know she would never lie to me and would never hurt me. Just go and find someone else you can fuck around with.", Austin calmly said and we watched (H/G/N) storm out of the church.
”And… now?”, I carefully asked. “Now”, Austin smiled “We will start our forever”
