#autistic!kenma

[ndkuroken]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[rolllingthunderr]

Autistic!Kenma HC’s Part 1

(look if I see a character I like with similar behaviour to me, im gonna project)

Got diagnosed really early on (maybe at 4 or 5) but his parents sorta kept it under wraps so as not to make a big deal out things

It’s very lucky he has Kuroo to help teach him because them not saying anything to the school means he misses out on a lot during classes due to them not getting him the help he needs with it

He often used to bite the people he loved as a kid because he couldn’t explain how he felt but he just loved them so much so.... bite

(It’s where Kuroo got his nickname Kitten from because apparently his teeth felt like needles)

Kuroo is very much his ‘safe person’ and is the one person he doesn’t feel like he has to mask around never makes fun of him (he’s normally the one defending him lets be real)

Masking is very much a defensive measure at this point, and it’s become his default behaviour after the years of bullying he endured, even though it means after the end of every day he’s physically and emotionally exhausted

Hyperfixates on video games to an unhealthy degree if he’s left to his own devices

The actual history of gaming and of certain consoles as well as their development, and certain games too are very much a special interest for him!

Games are also his safe haven. If he needs a distraction or something to centre him again, that’s where he’ll be.

Blankets are a big comfort item, and he often needs to burrow under a pile of them to feel truly safe, even in the summer (he has special thinner ones for when it gets to hot)

Stims by rocking. It’s mostly side to side or back and forth on his heels and then the balls of his feet

Also stims by clicking his fingers, or flexing his hands

When he’s happy stimming he stamps and kicks his legs about. especially if he’s sitting down, he likes the feel of them swinging

He has meltdowns fairly regularly given his tight schedule that he can’t work around. And even though he liked the routine of them, the social aspects of it sometime become too much

His meltdowns are surprisingly quiet. He’ll burrow somewhere and just sob and shake although he often hits himself during them, mainly his head and legs 

If he has access to a dry bath he will climb into it and make a nest.

His bluntness and lack of social awareness is cause by his autism and he gets hung up about it sometimes

- Especially when he accidentally hurts somebody with it because even though sometimes he doesn’t understand, that doesn’t mean he likes hurting people (like some people accused back in school)

When he gets a noise stuck in his head (its not often, but when it hits him it /hits him/) he and Kuroo will often spend about an hour just making it back and forth to each other. And if the team around they’ll happily do the same. (Its a team building exercise Lev shut up)

Has one especially favourite blanket. He’s had it since he was little. It’s a soft baby blue fleece with sheep on it and he likes bunching it up around his shoulders seeing as though it’s too small to burrow into anymore.

There’s gonna eventually be a part two to this cause this is getting long and i’m very late to the party but!! Give me more autistic!kenma! 

[rolllingthunderr]

Autistic!Kenma KuroKen | 5k words | SFW

Autistic!Kenma / Established Relationship / Domestic Fluff / Hurt/Comfort

Kenma has a meltdown at work and Kuroo helps him through it.

Full Work On AO3 Here (its only a snippet under the cut)

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Today was going to be the worst. He could tell as soon as he got up, it wouldn’t be a good day. But he ignores that thought, because he had to go to work, so he tries his best to just get on with it.

It starts straight after his shower, because after ten minutes of searching he hadn’t been able to find his hoodie, the one he had to wear to work because it was really big and he could burrow into the soft fabric while he worked. And, he’d been wearing it to work for at least two years now. But it was okay, he had another big hoodie, even if it wasn’t as soft and was grey instead of maroon. He would just powered through, ignoring the itch at the back of his mind that was starting. Ignoring the litany of ‘it’s not the same it’s not the same it’s not the same’ that starts with it.

Kuroo had been up first, so he was waiting sleepily at the kitchen counter for him. Dressed and showered himself with a coffee waiting as he drank his own. The routine of it settles his brain a little. As does the small kiss Kuroo gives him as he gently tugs at the hem of the different hoodie.

“Want a lift this morning?” He yawns as he does so, clocking the difference. Sometimes he knew Kenma better than himself. It was nice not having to worry about somebody not understanding.

“No.” Kenma shakes his head. Leaning up to kiss Kuroo again. Getting a lift would be too many differences in one day. And he liked his morning commute anyway. He liked the monotony of getting the train, he had it down to a science now. He knew the exact minute he had to leave so he’d get to the train station ten minutes before his train got there so he had time to get his ticket even if there was a line. And given how the company he worked out was a little out the way, his train was never really busy so he always got a seat. And he liked counting down the stops as he sat in the quiet, enjoying the rhythm of the train moving. It was soothing.

“Alright.” Kuroo nods. “You better leave soon then. Don’t wanna be late.”

“I know.” Kenma rolls his eyes, smiling when Kuroo cackles. He looks at his phone for the time. “I’ve got thirty two minutes until I have to leave.”

“Well sit and drink your coffee then.” Kuroo shuffles him towards the couch and Kenma goes, leaning into Kuroo’s side when Kuroo sits too. He always left after Kenma did because he drove, so they had time to wake up together.

This is settling too. And he shoves away the niggling at the back of his mind. One difference was okay. It wouldn’t ruin his whole day.

And it doesn’t. It’s everything else that does.

There’s more people on the train than usual. So he has to stand for his journey, arms brushing against other peoples, which he hates. He didn’t like touching people he didn’t know, even if it was just a simple brush of shoulders whenever the train swayed.

It felt like his skin was buzzing, and all he can do is try and focus on the music in his ears and the slight pressure of his headphones either side of his head. It’s enough to get him through the journey, although he has to take ten minutes to breathe deeply once he’s off the train. Head shoved between his knees until he can catch his breath again.

Work had been fine up until just after lunch. He’d been able to almost brush off the feelings of other people when he had first got into the office building where the gaming company was currently residing. Hiding in the toilets to take his hoodie off and scrub at his arms with his knuckles until the feeling went away.

The work itself was fine. He enjoyed it after all, code made sense. It’s just numbers and problem solving, and that settles him back again as he falls into the rhythm of tapping away at his keyboard. One leg curled up so that he can rest his chin on it as he tries to fix a problem his co-worker hadn’t been able to. It’s good, familiar. Familiar was good. Even if the problem was a hard one to fix.

Lunch hadn’t been great. The corner shop he went to didn’t have cup ramen he liked, so he’d had to settle for a different brand. It was fine though, it was still ramen so it hadn’t been the biggest change. And he’d been able to properly snuggle into the hoodie which he’d been distantly worried about. But no, he was able to pull his knees up to his chest underneath it. Circling up properly as he ate, absently listening to his co-workers chatting around him.

And then the fire alarm had gone off.

[ndkuroken]

👀 reading a post about autistic people having generally ""odd""posture so that's another point for Neurodivergent!Kenma