#autumnagain

[crit20lesbian]

If I can just— Do It All Anew is quite honestly one of the best fics I’ve read in years. Straight up, phenomenal incredible etc, thank you so much for putting it into the world. I just devoured the new chapter and had to come here to tell you direct. 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

[Do It All Anew]

oh my god thank you so much <33 i'm loving working on it sooo much, i'm so happy you're enjoying it (':

[koudounia]

#autumnagain #supposedtobespring #crapweather (at University of Hertfordshire)

[lemasquerade]

Winged eyeliner, motherfucker

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.This is longer than 100 words, but younger me deserves it.

Dear Twelve Year old Self,

Oh, my precious girl. You’re just now beginning to understand how cruel the world can be, and how little the universe listens to your particular collection of dust. You’re moving on from hopes and dreams into survival mode, and you’re going to live there for a long time to come. I want to say that it will be easy, but that would be a lie and we’ve never been a fan of liars.

This journey will sometimes hurt you in ways a person never deserves, and it is utterly, bitterly unfair. I wish I could make it gentler for you. Instead, I offer this:

My dear, try to remember to love yourself. You’re so desperate to give away that wreckage we call a heart that you will sacrifice yourself to keep the person holding it happy. It’s not fair to you, and it makes it hurt all the more when you have to pick up the fragments and tape it together one more time. Without self love you’ll keep taping and taping until you’ve forgotten what the original shape was, and at times you’ll wonder if it’s even worth doing at all.

There will be a time when you’re convinced it’s not. On that day, lock the balcony and don’t look at the bridge. Hold out, hold out, hold out. Your nightmares will not win.

Always remember that you survive. On the nights your heart feels safer in a box, or your head is screaming, or your body is broken, you survive. Resilience is your greatest asset, even if it feels like an absolute curse. Always remember there is beauty to live for. It comes in blips and whispers, but it’s there, even if you sometimes forget how to see it. Always remember there is love in the world. There are people who love you, even if you often feel as though you don’t deserve it.

Try to remember you deserve it. And when you can’t, think to the future.

Because, my god, you will do so many amazing things! You’ll see the world, and the wonders man has built upon it. You’ll challenge yourself mentally and physically and surpass goals you never thought you could reach. You’ll live past twenty five. You’ll conquer addictions that steal your friends away. You’ll earn a very shiny piece of paper that opens doors to dreams you thought impossible.

You’ll see the growth of your family. And somewhere along the line, a little girl will be born that will look at you as though all the light in existence shines from your eyes.

That last one is so, so cool.

So, hold out my sweet little thing. Hold out for the world that will crush you and then rebuild you from stronger stuff than you can fathom. Ours is not an easy life, but it is a worthwhile one.

Love,

Twenty Eight Year Old Self

[unfuckmyhead]

5 things that make me happy

1. Stories! Of any kind. I’ve been having difficulty with fiction books of late, but TV, movies, comics, books, video games, tales told to me deep in the night… Love ‘em.

2. Travel. I would be doing this alla the time if I had infinite money.

3. My peeps at #porncamp. Seriously, the Circlet folks are awesome and it’s killing me that I can’t be there this year.

4. Cats. One of mine is staring at me with deep annoyance that I will not feed her MORE FOOD. She’s so cute. And purring. Despite annoyance. Because cat.

5. Gaming. See also stories, but roleplaying just holds a special place in my heart.

I’m supposed to do this with asks but phone? So cythraul, octoberland, zaiatzgeistbeth, callmebliss, harukami, if you wanna do it, five things that make you happy.

[infiniteandsmall]

autumnagain replied to your post “[[MOR]I’m really mad because i cut myself again last night which was...”

I don't know what to say that could help but that I'm sorry for this + that I admire you because you are so smart + mature for your age (i was awful) and that I think you're gonna be so stellar, just this stellar human. You're gonna make it.

THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH this was very very lovely to wake up. And something I think I needed to hear. Also thank you for the link you sent! <3

[hungryphotographer69]

[infiniteandsmall]

autumnagain replied to your photo:2 emo to figure out what the fuck is goin on with...

WOW FUCKIN CUTIE ALERT

THANK FRIEND! YOU ARE CUTE YOURSELF!