Here and Now.
One of the most empowering lesson’s I’ve learnt was to LISTEN to myself, from here accountability flowed and responsibility for self blossomed. I am still growing and self love is the seed that has continued to grow this year, I am ever thankful for this. In the recent past I found myself asking what kind of woman should I become now? I saw all the expectations that society had planted in me as to how I was now supposed to Be, that perhaps it was time to put all my delightful pursuits away in the wake of a “grown” me. I quickly realized that it’s not about asking myself what kind of womxn I want to be, but rather truly taking the time to discover the womxn I AM in the light of self love. I have found that too often we give ourselves double the spiritual work by judging ourselves by what we deem our short comings or things we believe we lack, all seen through the veil of self judgement. How then can we ever know the truth of our Being? At first I found myself angry and afraid at the fact that I had still not mastered this lesson in self love but aside from these uncomfortable feelings I chose to start exactly where I was. I chose to listen to and observe myself first before leading myself down wild goose chase’s of self love learning’s not “applicable” to me. I took accountability for all my shit and found love in every “ ugly and beautiful” truth. And while the thought of truly loving yourself can be pretty daunting, (where the fuck do I start?) My good people I found a better footing in who I AM in taking up the responsibility.
I have arrived, landed from my fall, the fall I was told to trust. This awakening is not about fantasy, light or dark.The awakening is about journey; that isn’t to escape from or bring with. This journey is about taking every step I’ve ever wanted to take. And so the lessons of “perfection” and “imperfection” culminate to a higher degree. What that might be I’m not sure of, what I don’t want is to keep playing small to make myself and others comfortable and unyielding self judgement. I want Truth and Presence. Here and Now. It takes courage to believe. Believe this world is your’s, Not your’s alone but your’s you share in love. Open your eyes and see your world, then you might understand it’s infinite possibility.I want to remind you that Love speaks to you in ways You understand and all you have to do is LISTEN to that, listen to yourself, the love will come.