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"oh, i definitely want it in the past but with how everything happened? is it ever going to be that easy?” it wasn’t as if they had a string of luck when it came to these kinds of situations. he wasn’t even trying to imply that she had handled this wrong. he didn’t know how he would have handled it if he had been there. "i’m --” he pressed his lips together. no, he didn’t want it to come across like that. although he was fairly certain that anything that wasn’t an agreement with her would be the wrong thing. they had never been like that and he didn’t want them to be now. “you sentenced him to life in prison and i know... you were doing it for me but i... i don’t want that. you should at least hear me out?” because she hadn’t been there and she didn’t know the whole story. “hard work? hope?” he lifted his hands as it to ask her if she could hear what she was saying. this wasn’t what they strived for or what they worked hard for. that would make them as bad as the other assholes out there and that’s not what they were trying to be. "i love you but this isn’t us? this isn’t what we do.” scott didn’t want her to end up in prison, he had no intention of letting that happen but it didn’t mean that mobius deserved to rot there either. right?
"do i know these old friends?” because they sounded terrible. they had let her get so messed up with this that they had allowed her to murder someone the way she had? killing him to protect them was one thing but this hadn’t sounded like that. “in his own way i think you know he did. i wasn’t always there for cassie either. it didn’t mean a second went by where she wasn’t on her mind. where i wasn’t thinking of how i could make it up to her.” scott had a feeling he was stuck in those spirals where the more he opened his mouth. the worse he was making it when all he wanted to do was make it better. he didn’t want to see her or any of them lose another person and if she exiled hank out of her life? how was that not losing someone?
“hope--” he could sense the people beginning to look at them. he did not want to do this here. "i’m not saying you haven’t taken good care of her. i’m saying that no matter how we do this? this is going to affect her too. she loves you, she loves the both of you.” scott wasn’t trying to tell her to get on with her father for the sake of him or them or cassie. he wasn’t. he was just trying to get her take a pause on this whole taking sides thing. it made him uncomfortable. he didn’t want to do it. “you know i chose you. i have being do that for a very long time but it was never part of some ultimatum. why does it have to be either or? you’re both in my life. you’re both a big part of cassie’s life.” it was never going to work. this whole chose me and what? blank hank the next time he saw him? over something that he hadn’t even argued with him about? no, he wouldn’t do that.
scott put up his hands a little, telling her he was backing off the subject. that she didn’t have to create a bigger scene than she had. “okay. okay.” his voice quiet. “hope, i was just trying to help --” he hadn’t entered this with a bad motive, he hadn’t entered this with a bad bone in his body. he didn’t want her to lose someone important because they had both been there before. they had been there enough times to know how much it sucked. however, clearly right now this was not doing the situation any good and so... he was backing up. “if this is really what you want? i can’t pretend to understand it but i can... i can try to respect it.” if she wanted to know where his head space was then he couldn’t have gotten more honest than that. scott looked away from her when she tried to stick him with this ultimatum again. “i love you but i’m not doing that.” he could feel tears in his eyes but they were not going to fall. he wouldn’t let them. “we’re all family now. we don’t chose one person over the other. we’re not doing that.” it wasn’t fair and deep down he hoped she knew that it wasn’t right. how could she dump him with a choice like that? “my choice is clear... it’s just not the one you want to hear. i’m not doing this. i want to be by your side. i do. i want to be by your side through everything but you can’t ask me not to be by hank’s side too. that’s not right.” @lcvenderhcze
