#awkward personal post

[wakawaka33]

this is stupid but anyway :''D I just like coincidences like this

[theserpentsadvocate]

So I had this brilliant idea where I would try to post something - maybe sometimes just a quick headcanon thing or whatever, but something original - every day I wasn't working.

And like... it wasn't a bad idea? But all of a sudden most of my weekend's getting eaten up by babysitting job #2 and there... are... no days when I'm not working...?

I still have one part of the Narnia rant written so I'll try to edit and post it for Sunday and get the rest done regardless but God, I'm flailing around here. Jsyk.

[theserpentsadvocate]

My tooth just broke for no reason. It's never hurt. I've never had problems with it. I didn't get hit in the face. It happened in the middle of the night. I am so tired of shit happening to me.

[theserpentsadvocate]

The bad news: My new computer crashed.

The worse news: All my documents and pictures vanished.

The good news: Dave the Computer Guy still has my hard drive from my old computer.

So all in all I've lost what I had of the House of Haleth women dolls, a couple minor things here and there, and one new project (which is a bummer, but probably something I can recreate almost as good), but everything else (like my novel, and most of my half-finished fic) is coming back.

So no Beorian women today, but I'll make up for it when I get my computer back.

[theserpentsadvocate]

So. My computer broke sometime last week, and I was just going to let my giant queue run out and wait until it's fixed, but it's looking like I'll need a new one and no word on when that will be. (Let's hope they can get my writing off there if nothing else, I have like half a novel on it. This has been a PSA to back up your stuff.) Anyway, I'll beef up my queue again and whatnot, but updates and the things I'd hoped to post soon will have to wait. :(

Ah well. I miss you guys.

[theserpentsadvocate]

So in the past, uh... three days, I have

-lost my job

-had a complete and utter meltdown

-committed to moving back home.

I’m not particularly upset about this (...uh, the last one, that is) - just that I spent nine months paying rent and food and accomplished nothing so I could have stayed at home and saved some money . But anyway, there we go, now I am no longer on the pretending-everything’s-fine train.

More importantly:

I talked to none of you about this. Not my mutuals, not my mutuals-I-chat-with, not my other followers (whom I still greatly admire)... not even my rl friends, to be honest. And I want to stress that because you still helped me.

Like, okay, it was not that helpful to get online and find out that CHRISTOPHER LEE DIED, but just knowing you guys were there? And scrolling through a few a lot of pages on a potential-mutual’s blog with lots of happy animal pictures and funny videos? And that there are these people who like me, and these other people who think I say smart things about Edain, and that one person who liked my ridiculous Morwen/Aerin graphic and...

THERE ARE PEOPLE ON OTHER CONTINENTS WHO KNOW MY NAME. (...Or maybe just one person...? Other countries anyway.) And that made everything going to shit a bit less awful.

Anyway. Thank you.

[willtakeitinstride]

You know what sucks? You eat some really delicious, greasy, and fattening food, and it tastes so damn good, and like an hour later, you're shitting yourself in agony and you don't understand why the food had to fucking betray you like that!