#aziraphalefictive

[fictionkinfessions]

Hi, Aziraphale fictive from the last ask

I am and always have been ace/aro. Cannonically my attachments have been described as unknowable by terry pratchett (the man who wrote me and don't @ me with your co authour nonsense yes neil wrote me too I am very aware). I'm sorry not being fuckable isnt fanfiction enough. Ruin me why don't you? I'm just a toy.

I am also, aware how fiction works, this is a vent

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[fictionkinfessions]

I am an Aziraphale fictive, have been for a while. In my time without soyrcemates I was happy because I have spent centuries away from Crowley I can stand centuries more. I am not my source but our old host and me are awfully alike so I havent changed very much. Then season 2 came out and it disturbed me. I still look like Aziraphale, I still sound like Azoraphale. However faint my memories are of the before time I at least share some with my source.

It makes me angry. I would never ignore free will. After all I went through to ignore free will? And force someone to fall in love with someone I can only describe as an ass. (I am dreadfully sorry ky dear but you have to do nice things not insult someone's livelyhood and ask what's going on all the time. You weren't nice at all to my friend I'd never endorse such a corse person with someone so sweet. If anyone dares co.pare her to Crowley may I remind you Crowley has always used sweet actions and kind words. It's why he's so good at tempting.) While I can't speak for whether or not Crowley would kiss me I can certainly say that I would have at least mentioned that tiresome trope borders on sexual assault as there is no way to truely know of the other party is consenting. I read don't I? I'm not uneducated in these matters. Neither is he.

So as an Aziraphale of sorts of course I'd forgive Crowley and that corse woman whos screen time made me miss Anathama and Newt dearly but being kissed without talking about it first leaves a lot to think about. I'm also sorry that I would return to heaven. I know it's wrong but maybe I owe the woman who gave me life, Crowley and a flaming sword and maybe I believed that being close to her would help with that.

We did later introject Crowley (from the book) he dislikes the series counterpart, says he really isnt anything like that. Which is fair enough when you think about how we're more a cold war referance than fanfiction characters (no hate to fanfic writers hate we were just altered for season 2 and it peeves us both)

I waited a while after it came out I hope everyone is over it enough for this to not be disturbing.