azure sighed softly, holding twotimes hand in their own after days without being around them. taking in the light breeze of the air surrounding them, unknowing of what had been happening to his lover for days now, he thought silently to himself about the past week being rather strange. -
— the previous days in which twotime had been missing or them blowing the cold shoulder and pretending to not hear him. a high switch from their usual personality which was especially strange to consider. twotime was clingy, they tended to be around him constantly, many people have said most if not always twotime is by his side throughout the day without fail. and even occasionally twotime snuck into his room to sleep with him on occasions unbeknownst to the higher-ups. which left him confused on why they had stopped so suddenly, despite that nothing raised an cause for concern in his mind remembering the start of the week. he was tending to his nightshades and plethora of other purple adjacent flowers as per usual only accessorizing the beauty of a nightshade, much like his eye-catching lover... which he had not the slightest inkling of where they currently were or what they were doing. which was strange, theyre usually always besides him no matter the circumstance. shrugging it off however he went back to work, not thinking much of it at all. ᛝ while azure was gardening, twotime was handling their feelings to their situation terribly, hiding inside their room and locking the door, refusing to eat, drink or sleep. with them having such a childish and strong attachment nature they couldnt handle being away from azure and still seeing him around. even if it would contribute to a second life, they had found themself to begin uncontrollably cutting into their body more and more in attempt to release the built up sadness and obsession they were forced to bottle away from their peers including themself, methodically slicing their blade across their thighs, shoulder, and arm. doing so throughout the week heavily, even finding themselves accidentally nicking a vein from the sheer amount they had cut into their body however somehow managing to hide it from azure and take care of it theirself, not wanting him to suspect anything happening to be wrong or out of whatever "natural routine" their cult could have. twotime not being able to look azure in the eyes as they knew the inevitable was going to happen, began refusing any and all invitations to events especially the ones azure attended. not wanting to even catch a glimpse of azure knowing it would cause them to break into a thousand pieces, possibly ruining their entire plan. as time marched forward the day twotime was dreading approached as well. they sat alone in their room, with the lights out they stared at their wall, digging their blade deeply across any un-cut skin they could locate. azure was a loud contrast to twotimes actions. he sat alone in his room thinking, it felt unusual remembering twotime always around him in one way or another, only to suddenly vanish. without their prescence azures room was quiet, dull and uncomfortable. he looked down at a letter twotime gave him a week prior inviting him to the spot they had found together, it was a oddly formal letter but azure was desprate to see twotime in any means . the forest clearing was beautiful spotted with gorgeous nightshades and many other kinds of flowers surrounding area, azure sat silently, imagining once more how they had even found the area, starting together on a cold december night, twotime under his arm as they snuck out and explored them lying on his shoulder as they walked together, keeping eachother warm.
they had snuck out together to see if they could find anything to do, seeing winter nights being especially boring, disregarding the freezing air and snow fallen on the ground. they held eachother close in the clearing, resting upon a old tree as they talked about meaningless nothings, extremely grateful for even being allowed to lie together side by side, exchanging their bodyheat and getting to hold eachother, in such a vast and lonely world. he yearned to feel their warmth on his body once more, almost desperately. he hadnt been without twotime for this long since the days before they ever had met. ever since meeting they had been inseparable. azure wished to keep it that way, being by eachothers sides till the ends of time and even beyond that. sighing softly azure trailed off from his point and began preparing to leave, and meet his partner as a week had come to a close twotimes suffering undoubtably peaked, their body ached from the pain of the relentless cutting they had been doing to themself, not knowing what else to do with their feelings. however despite this they managed their way to the clearing, gazing left to right only to finally see azure sitting in their spot alone as he had been that week, his silhouette a soft and lonely ghost without twotimes body adjacent to his side, clinging beside him as usual. awaiting the arrival of the person he held so dear to him and who he had yearned for with a unexplainably horrible pain that festered within him, a empty crater at the bottom of his heart which twotime filled perfectly.
they sat down softly next to azure without a word and leaned onto his shoulder, the raw cuts on their body covered visually by non ripped clothing which they almost never wore, pained them like they were cutting themselves all over again at that very moment as they put their weight onto azure, trying to seem completely normal, with a soft shake from pain they intertwined his hand with their own holding his hand close and tightly, refuting tears which were trying to prick from his tired and pain filled eyes. azure only heard a small sniffle coming from the other as they sat together, completely unaware of their extreme inner turmoil barraging their mind and the truth of where and what they had been doing this whole time without him around. ꩜ portal to part 2 .ᐟ