I think when we embark upon a relationship, it is a way of taking a glimpse into ourselves. We may think we know, but it never becomes apparent as seeing it from someone else’s lens.
Being alone is easy because you can go through time and not trigger a response of dealing with your internal issues. When someone is in front of you, looking into your eyes and saying, “I want you to see from my perspective,” it elicits a moment of truth for you that may not have been apparent without them.
Relationships are scary for the most part, but mainly because at times there is a mirror in front of you. And what you see is not always pretty because you have negated parts of yourself for so long. What I have learned is vulnerability is not negligent...For sometime, I was scared to show my feelings and chose to speak to their facade instead of being me and speaking my truth.
I have come to accept, whether that mirror is pretty or not; I am going to be me, speak my truth, and not be afraid to hold back. Because of her, who I am, is all I have.
As I internalize through another’s eyes, I have ascertained that this is part of the human experience. That is what makes us human. We are not meant to be here alone because we could not evolve without these connections.
Dare boldly, be the most authentic self you can be, no matter how frightening or triggering that can be in this human experience. We are meant to find our truest selfs within a symbiotic experience. Whether that is fleeting or sustained with this person. You were meant to grow with others. Just breathe into these moments because this is what you have here. Now. To embark is being whole.