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ANNUAL WRITING SELF-EVALUATION

*All answers should be about works published in 2017.

steph @twoghostsacoustic tagged me so let’s fucking go fuckos

1. List of works published this year:

let’s be honest here and admit that steph was the one to write M&W all by her damn self HAHAHAHAH it’s our baby but i’m like the cool father who only pops by every weekend to fuck up the kid’s personality and all the hard work is steph’s own doing (same applies to love is on the radio)

anyway moving on

i’ve written everything i’ve ever tried in my life this goddamn year so congrats 2017 you played yourself

first: PWPs Butterflies (or as i like to call it, harry and louis going solo again) Blue and Green (don’t judge me) Ambrosia (seriously pls don’t judge me) Through the Wire (actually nevermind if you’re judging me it’s your problem lmao) Ruby Woo (yes it’s harry wearing lipstick)

Then i tried~~ to be a serious writer and my babies were born

You can’t blame gravity (for falling in love) aka larcel au

High-five of your love aka girl larry 

Harry’s Journal to Self Discovery aka girl larry that will probs be published soon?? and hopefully my xmas crack fic as well???

then i got two wips that were written this year and published on the amnesty week cuz i will never finish it let’s be real lmao

2. Work you are most proud of (and why):

honestly? butterflies cuz it was the first one i published on ao3 lmao cuz everything i write i despise

except u#28 i love that shit to pieces but it’s still wip and i love it cuz it’s noir and superhero-y and yeah

3. Work you are least proud of (and why):

every single one of them lmao i hate my writing BUT i think blue and green cuz it was the first one????????????????? and it really does suck lmao

4. A favorite excerpt of your writing:

“Shouldn’t you have quit by now?”

“The watch out?” He smirked. “Or the fags?”

He didn’t need to look at Liam to know he was rolling his eyes.

“You know they’re not good for you.”

“Jeez, dad, no need for a lecture right now.” Louis inhaled again, just in spite, wishing he could blow it out to write words on the wind like a magician of sorts. Instead, he amused himself by imagining his deformed cloud of smoke wrote a giant ‘Fuck off, Payno’ before dispersing on the wind. “They help me concentrate. Besides, they keep me warm.”

Liam tsked behind him. Sometimes he took himself too seriously. Louis wondered what it was like to still be like this. Wholesome. Unwavering. Faithful.

“Are you still having trouble sleeping?”

Louis sighed, crushing the butt of the cigarette against the wall and then throwing it away, the wind picking it up. The best part about sitting so up high was watching the wind carry everything away in a second, almost an endless fall of an acrobat, suspended on air, far away from the ground.

“Yeah.”

He let the wind take his voice away as well. Let it be swept away. Liam would know better than to keep the questioning anyway.

They stood in silence, surrounded by echoes of street life and the falling night.

5. Share or describe a favorite comment you received:

uhhhhhhhhh i love @gaycousinlarry‘s girl direction work so i’m still weak she read and commented on mine haha then @finck-you-freeky and @smellofsunshine both read my pretentious wip and highlighted some nice passages and i loved it and someone commented on my larcel saying they’ve reread it many times and i still don’t know how to answer it cuz i’m so flattered???????????? 

but above all i’ll always remember @runontheroadbeforeidance‘s comment for butterflies cuz she was the first person outside of my little group of friends to read my work and comment it and she said it felt like a slow hazy summerday which was EXACTLY what i wanted to pass and i still hold this close to my heart tbh haha

honestly i’m just grateful for everyone who ever read it and if they liked or commented on it i’ll love them forever haha

6. A time when writing was really, really hard:

every goddamn time. i struggle a fucking lot to write lmao

7. A scene or character you wrote that surprised you:

i’m still not over all that spitting marcel did. why the fuck, mate? also u#28 everyone is always surprising me haha

8. How did you grow as a writer this year:

i actually begin to write so there’s that haha

9. How do you hope to grow next year:

i hope i write smth i’m actually proud of and think it’s actually good haha @ u#28 u ma only hope

10. Who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer or beta or cheerleader or muse etc etc):

ughhhh my beta @britpickerhl my test runners @broccoliwasdone @finck-you-freeky @rosegoldhl will have a honour mention and all but will have to excuse me cuz right now it’s @twoghostsacoustic time

no seriously y’all don’t understand i literally only started to write because of steph HAHAHAHAHA it’s more than the fact she’s my friend my beta my cheerleader and my padner in this hellhole, she literally is the reason i even realized i could try my hand at this shit. so if yall wanna blame someone, it’s her

we have our drs and whatnot but in the end tamo junto 

so yeah steph through and through

(also dj imma choose fireproof to play then since steph wrote OVER AGAIN for me and whatnot)

11. Anything from your real life show up in your writing this year:

i too fisted someone this year

lmao jk but it does appear all the fucking time, especially the pop culture/music mentions and when they’re particularly dumb

12. Any new wisdom you can share with other writers:

watch porn, it helps

but seriously: don’t give a shit what others might think about your work, about popularity or whatever the fuck. just write it for you and if someone wants to read it with you fuck yea they winning but this baby is yours and yours alone so don’t mind about being a hype or if it’s good or not. what matters is that u wrote it so kudos to you for your effort

also, never forget fandoms love to love bs so sometimes..... things that are famous...... are worse........

and just embrace your weirdness and go for your own brand and do you

13. Any projects you’re looking forward to starting (or finishing) in the new year:

oooooh boy yes 

i got a marcel exchange to do that i wanna write asap (tbh i have to lmao)

the i got a star trek au for @hrrytomlinson that god only knows how i’ll fit in between my other shit sorry kiddo i’m postponing that due date already haha

then i got a gift for @twoghostsacoustic that she has no idea what it’s about

then i got ruby woo part 2, the storyteller, u#28, my abo and my beatles au that are all fics that i’m dying to write

and fuck knows what else is in store lmao

also i’d love to write for other fandoms

and to like maybe take writing serious for once lmaooooooooo

14. Tag three writers/artists whose answers you’d like to read

honestly i lowkey tagged a lot of people while writing this haha so i’ve rigged the game and am tagging them but lemme see @rosegoldhl wassup binch @smellofsunshine to inspire you to write more haha and @threeandsixseconds @fireawaynjh @vanillabeanniall 

honestly what are rules i got new ones and i count them ayyy

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I just bought @onoubliedemain late bday gift hahahhhahahahahahaahhhahaha I hope she'll like it

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I am terribly bored and I can't sleep at all, so I saw @dreamydrarry doing this one and tagging "anyone else who'd like to do this" and yeah. Here it is. Sorry for intruding, my dash is dead. There goes: lockscreen, homescreen, my most recently played song and a recent selfie. I'm tagging @onoubliedemain who mustve done this 5071829272 times but i wanna see deerest harold @bellatrixblacke i hope your homescreen is one of my selfies @thiccstan i bet ill see harold again @doctorrainbows hullo lovely and @broccoliwasdone ma gal

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WHO WAS I BEFORE JOHN WAYNE

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Normally i don’t do these kinda questions cuz i forget or can’t be bothered, but @doctorrainbows is lovely and she tagged me so of course i will do it.

Rules: Answer these questions and tag 9 people you want to get to know better

Relationship status - single as a pringle and not ready to mingle stay put universe (unless you’re my crush then you can @ me) Lipstick or chapstick - matte lipstick because of course Top 3 shows -  hooo boy. House of Cards, of course. Star Trek because icon (TOS les be real. tbh all of it. all of it. the movies too. put them all in). And. B99 because yes. Top 3 characters - Draco Malfoy, Regulus Black and Dean Winchester. jfc this reeks testosterone and daddy issues.  Last song I listened to - Kill V. Maim - Grimes before i fell asleep last night lol ah no wait i listened to the radio on my way to work but for the love of me i can’t remember which songs??????? I remember Rude I think? And. Some deep purple? aw man let’s pretend it was kill v. maim bye

ok tagging 9 peoples. @smellofsunshine @bellatrixblacke @onoubliedemain i probs can answer them all for you but i wanna know the songTM. @thiccstan you gonna say bucky and i hate your ass for that. @broccoliwasdone you’re cute you can stay @elizabethdolly @westbrookwestbooks @clairemonet @slashandbromance y’all cool

#pas

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The art of texting through 3 different types of chat: a memoir by me and @onoubliedemain

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Sooo, I know I never post anything on my blog, and I know there will be barely anyone who sees this (part of the reason I post something for once). I just wanted to say that I really have a love/hate relationship with spiders. I definetely have arachnophobia, but after years of living in a room with a wooden balcony door that allowed all kind of insects to squirm their way inside my bedroom, my fear of spiders has decreased a bit. I appreciate a "normal" spider (as long as it keeps its distance), for the fact that it eats other insects (including mosquitoes). However, when I wanted to turn my light of this evening, there was this HUGE spider sitting in the corner of my room, my brother killed it for me (my apologies to the spider), but I'm still freaked out. I searched the whole room, especially my bed, for any sign of another unwanted guests, luckily I didn't see any of them. There was no point in posting this, but that's too late now, I guess. Thanks for reading my message.

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so top 10 albums of the year

this is quite possibly (ok it literally is) the hardest chain anything i ever did in my life EVER

and the reasons are  - 1 @somos-larry​ tagged me and she did such a bang up amazing job that my follow through will look like a drunk cow drawing near a michelangelo masterpiece - 2 i realized i listened to less new albums than id like lmao it seems i’m conservative and like to listen to music i already know WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT spoilers: everyone

anyway. it was hard to think of all the albums especially cuz many of them released this year i either 1 hated 2 hated the artist 3 didn’t know lmao

ok so

TOP 4 ALBUMS and these are solely for the reason that i listened to them the most and related to so much

1 - Science Fiction - Brand New. i mean fuck the fuckboy who did what he did and all, but lit me up is quite possibly one of the best songs in life ever

2 - Flicker - Niall Horan. is there... any doubts..... i listened to this album like everyday for a month lmao

3 - Harry Styles - Harry Styles. my boy harold has got A FUCKLOAD to improve for his next album..... doesn’t change the fact kiwi was the song i listened to the most in 2017

4 - Dua Lipa - Dua Lipa. my wife did a fucking amazing job and i love her and am proud of it

THE FOLLOWING 6 with no particular order

5, 6, 7 - Saturation I, II, III - Brockhampton. it’s been less than a month that i listened to these and honestly? i’m still shook. best boyband since one direction YES

8 - Is this the life we really want? - Roger Waters. come on my man waters did a critique to temer using his album cover, of course i’d put him here wtf

9 -  Lust for life - Lana del Rey. i still think lana has been singing the same song since she started singing on the other life and tbh i still dig it

10 - Process - Sampha. i listened to this album a lot in the beginning but i seemed to have forgotten it lmao doesn’t change the fact plastic 100ºC still goes hard AF top 500 of life and shit and all man

special number 9 3/4: Vai Passar Mal - Pabllo Vittar because obvs???

i have no real parameters to judge shit besides what tickles my icklers please don’t judge me

imma tag @twoghostsacoustic for her to bring on the emo and then no one else cuz i don’t wanna be embarrassed in front of anybody else LMAO

also if i was supposed to also choose top 10 music of 2017 and top 10 music video i hope y’all know the 10 best music was drag me down by one direction for the third time in a row and the 10 best music video was cars by gary numan for the 39th time in a row thank you for your attention