WHY DO I FUCKING HAVE THE MOST DESPRESSED THOUGHTS AT NIGHT!
I guess existential Crisis below and tigger warnings I don't know
Guys, when we die, there is a good chance nobody will remember who we are in 100 or so years. That scares me.
Also, we don't know what comes after death, and that also terrifies me. Death doesn't scare me. it's the stuff that comes after death is what scares me. It could be a black void for all I know, or it could be an afterlife!
We could be recarnated as something else or have our matter scattered across the universe, why the fuck are these thoughts in my head, can anyone answer my thoughts?! Is this normal? Do all people think about death!
What is life? Is it just doing the most mundane thing until we die?
I don't want to work as an office worker or a fast food worker, I don't want to live my life in fear of someone breaking into my house.
I have nightmares of this stuff all the time, and I'm scared. I can't stop these nightmares and I can't stop working.
Someone shot up a gas station place a few days ago and someone fucking died!
Are we supposed to live our lives in fear of this?! I don't trust people cause of this.
I don't trust people at all! I feel like one minute they could be happy and chill and the next they could be tormenting me and making fun of me. I don't understand why I can't focus on school, I'm failing my classes today and I just want to cry everyday.
I don't understand why I feel like this, maybe it's cause I haven't taken my meds in a while?
I don't remember what the entire thing was, and I don't even think anyone would read this. I guess I need to get this off my chest? I need a therapist, my old one left me again. I'm all alone again.
I had another fight with my mom, and I did nothing wrong! Why does my family fight so much?
I might have BPD cause one minute I'm fine and the next I'm not-
I'm probably going to delete this later, I just really need to rant
I guess ty for anyone reading this- sorry..