2020 has been a YEAR. I know we have all felt it. I’m just really happy, right now. I’m proud of myself, just overall I am really feeling a type of love I have not experienced before. Like, I know there will always be ups and downs but I also know I can handle it, on my own.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s been hard and I’ll admit that I’ve had many, many dark days.
...You truly never know what someone is going through and I have learned A LOT experiencing these things myself... here is my personal rating of difficulty:
Divorce 1,897,765/10 the worst, would never do it again. Don’t recommend. If you know someone going through a divorce, please send them love and wine. Maybe isn’t so bad when not leaving a sociopath! Idk still sucked.
Staging & Selling the marital home 3,567,875/10 absolutely NEVER want to do this again. Going through 12 years of your life together, alone should only be done when one of you dies... and even then you still need emotional support. Biggest fucking hugs to anyone who has or us dealing with this.
Being Laid Off 5/10 at first, this rly sucked. Obv still does money wise... but I needed this time to deal with the above
Moving 10/10 super hard to do alone during covid. Luckily my bros were v helpful 🥰 I LOVE my place. Please help your single friends move bc it is so hard alone.
Going No CONTACT w/ Narc Ex -1,866,656/10 Woooo!!!!! Freedom!!! Okay, admittably hard at first, but only bc I was worried what he would do & I’m taking on +400/mth in pet expenses... BUT then I realized - he can’t touch me now & I’d pay more for that fr ✨
Ofc a lot more has happened, a lot more will! I am triggered af on a daily basis, I get depressed and stay inside for days sometimes and that’s okay. But today, my nervous system is at peace and that is just such a warm feeling...
Whatever you are going through, I want you to know that you are doing a great job. In case noone has told you YOU are worthy, YOU got this & I LOVE YOU 💜
