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29. Your muse walks in on mine sobbing inconsolably.
It one more of those days when the breakdowns came stronger than the usual, when not even the medicines could have him handle the hallucinations, and for someone that once suffered a big trauma, he was terrified. Enoch was never someone strong to deal with his own mental illness, mainly because that became a real problem after the episode of being kidnapped for those months, because before that it was only some memories that caused him no harm. He could deal with that. But the hallucinations... Oh, god, no, that was a torture.
At that point he couldn’t be the smiley Enoch as always, all the voices inside of his head and all the shadows and bad things he saw changed him into a crying and sobbing mess, but fortunatelly it wasn’t bad to the point of him to start scratching on his own skin to bleed, which had happened several times before. The schizophrenia was a dangerous thing, after all. If he could sleep, he would, just to block all of that to come to his mind.
But it was when he heard someone approaching. A voice he knew well, a voice filled with worry and confusion. It was Hani. Enoch would always remember and recognize his friends anywhere no matter what, and that was why his sobbing suddenly stopped, Enoch pursed lips to hide what was happening since she didn’t need to know about that. Hani probably never knew about his illness and they always had fun together, what if she got scared after that just like everyone did that time? He didn’t want that.
“I-I did nothing, I... uh... I just...” He started in a shaky voice, trying his best to ignore everything going on his mind, causing it to be almost impossible to think about what to say to her, looking away from the female. “Noona, you need to get out of here, t-they’ll catch you, they can’t know you’re here--”