Oct 30, 2025
this is the first time i've really grieved
and i think i understand, now, how grown ass adults believe in ghosts and like heaven.
the vet included a card about like. oh there's this rainbow bridge with green pastures where she'll play with other animals happily until you pass along and reunite. it's childish, but it's a touching story.
and also it FEELS like there's a ghost??? like. my body feels a weight on my chest. my muscle memory assumes it's a cat. my conscious knows its her (ashes). it's like an optical illusion. i KNOW there's not a ghost. but boy there sure is a ghost here.
and damn, if she was here as a ghost listening to me talk gently to her... she would really like that.
