helllooo minor life update
I’m in therapy again bc my OCD had gotten life-debilitatingly bad again this year (kinda in the last couple years really) and I’m seeing the same therapist who helped me like 6 years ago and it’s goin really well so far!!
weeee are also getting kittens 😌 I won’t be posting pics of them on public socials bc I don’t want people I know irl to figure out who I am (LOL) but trust me they are reeeally cute
still in my creative slump, kinda. aside from spending most of my time in one specific radiostatic server (mostly for the friends I’ve made in there) I’m not really active in any fandom space atm.
being completely honest… fandom feels really shitty lately and I know I’m not the only one who feels this way. a lot of it has become so toxic & negative online and just, like, constant fighting & “gotcha” moments trying to attack creators, puritanical shaming of people’s likes etc… it’s just grim and I’m tired of it ngl. Like I’m not even really looking at bsky or tumblr anymore. I just talk to friends on discord and that’s about it in terms of fandom stuff. It’s all I’ve got the mental bandwidth for while also preventing myself from getting too engrossed in negative draining shit
that said I’m really feeling the lack of an itchy hyperfixation. it sucks. I have zero control over it. I just haven’t been struck with one yet all year and I feel incomplete without a current HF. In some ways it’s nice cause I can focus on my other hobbies and interests but the high of having an all-encompassing obsessive hyperfixation is just such a rush and I miss it. I hope I’ll get to feel that again one day
all this to say, I’m sorry I’m not more active and I’m not “contributing” to the fandoms I’m supposedly a part of. I still get comments on my fics from new people finding them and I’m really glad the stories I wrote are still making people happy. That’s all I want
Until we chat next time, be safe, stay strong, be cute & kind & sassy xxxxx