Dec 11, 2022
update on The Horrors Date: we are now meeting maybe tuesday? because he's a third year and he's got something to do with his dissertation due monday and that's definitely why he couldn't meet at the time i gave him there's no other reason why he'd want to meet in the evening at his house without a time limit as opposed to the afternoon like i said. i am not overthinking this on the contrary im being very optimistic about this entire thing
#basicallyyyyyyy#we agreed on sunday and when i asked him what time he said 8ish#but my flat are (genuinely) having a xmas dinner tonight and my mate has effectively given me a fucking curfew#where she was like 'if you're not back by 6 im killing you in your sleep'#so i told him that and said we could meet around 4ish instead#and he immediately was like no#and it's totally valid he literally told me AGES ago that he had an assignment he needed to do over the weekend#and that's why we originally said friday#but im IMMEDIATELY here like 'he wants me to come to his HOUSE in the EVENING when i have NO EXCUSE TO LEAVE'#like gee i wonder what he thinks is gonna happen....#BUT BUT BUT i think we're just going to go for coffee now because it's easier? so this is actually a good thing#im like aware that it's me being a bitch and assuming the worst out of him but idk im paranoid about shit like this#if we do just get coffee on tuesday im gonna be over the moon bc that takes away so much fucking stress#i was telling my flatmate about it bc normally i wouldnt have even agreed to get dinner with him at his house as a first date#bc who does that for a FIRST DATE?? that's terrifying no thank you#but because i spent the night with him it's kind of warped the timeline of things and now idk where we are#and my flatmate was like 'so? ive spent the night with lads and i dont think it changes anything about a first date'#and i was like i understand but bestie you're talking about SEX#i didnt do ANYTHING with this guy we CUDDLED and he KISSED THE TOP OF MY HEAD AT ONE POINT#THAT IS SO MUCH WORSE THAN JUST SLEEPING WITH HIM IDK WHAT THE PROTOCOL FOR THIS IS#basically it's all a shambles#but ive had more time to think about it and while that has been its own curse bc ive overthought EVERYTHING#it's also made me realise that this is ultimately a good fun exciting thing and i need to stop being a little bitch about it#hella goes to uni
