oh my god, i just had a Thought......
what if ohaew kisses bas just to see if he can feel what maybe teh felt with tarn with the boy he supposedly likes?? because, the thing is, he isn't sure anymore. because he looks at bas, and he sees the pretty boy that he liked for a while, who's nice to him, who's kind and listens and takes care of him in silent ways. but then, he looks at teh, and his world turns a bit brighter with memories of the past. shared meals and bike rides, cartoons and beach days, dog walks and study dates. all of this makes ohaew confused, because his heart says one, but his brain says the other. so he tries. he tries and see if he can feel with bas what teh told him he felt with tarn. and he kisses him. and he doesn't feel it. and he regrets it. and he cries all night, because it shouldn't feel this wrong to kiss him. it should be the pretty boy sleeping next to him, who will not know this ever happened. it should be him, but it isn't.