#bat rambles

[bat-luun]

[said with increasing amount of distress] i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this

[squicksquak]

Jason: Shit, the power went out.

Damian: Don’t worry Todd, I got this.

Damian: *stomps foot*

Jason: What the-?

Damian: *Sketchers light up*

[superspookyybat]

it really bothered me when people were saying after ii16 that lightbulbs coded traits would be "dumb and cant take anything seriously! so tragic" not just because those things literally arent true, but because i see it as "coded for her natural inclination under any stress to be to act unserious and unaffected. she doesnt know why this is". like. imagine you wish you could express your negative emotions, talk to someone, get help - but for some reason theres this visceral discomfort when you think about doing so. the idea of people seeing this other side of you, even if it IS more authentic, just feels so wrong. and then you find out that some of your basic traits were pre-programmed into you, and youre like "oh. so this coping mechanism manifested because of that. okay" and then? you just shove it to the back of your mind because you dont want to think about that. its better not to.

[batnbreakfast]

Are you happy? Truly?

Hey anon,

What a question to receive before my first coffee.

Part of me wanted to start a philosophical essay about what happiness actually might be, but I'm sure that's not the root of your ask. 😄

I love my life right now - I do have a good partnership, good friends, a good job. I have safety and contentment, but there's also things in my life to look forward to. I tend to fill my spare time with things I love doing. (Not speaking of the upcoming dentist appointment next Monday, but you know, sometimes we just have to suffer through some things.)

Do I wake up with a smile each morning? Goodness me, absolutely not. Last night I had about 4.5 hours of sleep, so a smile certainly wasn't to be found anywhere near my face this morning.

There's daily stressors, mental and unfortunately physical health hiccups, and wanting/missing things in my life that aren't achievable (mostly people related, but I could also do with suddenly winning a house in Devon and the ability to move there without the tons of paperwork and money usually necessary).

Coming back to the philosophical essay: Did you know that the word happy actually meant lucky for a long time? Given my first twenty years on this planet: I certainly feel incredible lucky to have ended up where I am these days.

So, yes, anon - I'm happy. Thanks for asking! I hope you'd answer the same if I'd ask you back.

[bhaalsdeepbat]

weird vampire behavior idea: just reading in the dark. no lights at all. pitch black but poured over a book

[averymossybat]

One of my best friends made me some art of my fursona for my birthday and I'm damn near crying about it, it's so pretty and sweet and kind waaaaaaaa I love it so much

Art by blueinsta_artz (link embedded) on Instagram

[batdrawz]

Rewatching the card shop video and. Nghf what I wouldn't give to run my hands through that hair 《and maybe do some other things...》

[batstronaut]

hey jsyk, seeing the art of vi you drew inspired by the butch teddy bears (especially the one where she wears tape!) was what finally convinced me to start my journey of discovering myself as a butch and a transmasc and i’m so eternally grateful to you for that

ahh omg this warms my heart so much that's so cool to hear !!

taped up vi bear is one of my favorites im so glad its helped you in such a way :D

i too have been on a little gender adventure. playing around with gender is so fun, getting to know oneself is so fun. i wish you all the best on your journey 💙

and shout out to butches i love yall ‼️🗣️🔊