#baukitten

[bauresurrected]

[ makeup ] sender fixes receiver's makeup for them

she tilts her head back, blinking rapidly to try and stop any more tears from coming. tears need to be over and done with. tears are so twenty minutes ago. she presses the heel of her hand into her eye and it comes away dark with mascara. she doesn't even want to know what she looks like right now.

"i'm just tired, pen. i'll be alright after i sleep. which isn't going to happen for awhile, because i've got to fix everything so rossi can lead for - oh, i don't know, the next ten thousand years."

and she can't do that looking like she spent the past hour crying in her office. she would never get her job back then. if she ever did. if she even wants it.

she pushes her makeup bag closer to garcia.

"thank you."

[bauresurrected]

“ you’ll be no help to anyone if you run yourself into the ground. ”

"if i recall properly - and i do - i was plenty of help last time i was in the ground. i mean, my mere death got the ball rolling." oh, this whole thing is in poor taste. who cares. dying has got her in hot shit more than once. fucking brian. "sure, i had to come back to really bury the hatchet-" or bury the doyle, as it were - "but - is this going over well? is this joke funny? i can't tell, i haven't slept in forty eight hours."

[bauresurrected]

"No way we're leaving you behind."

"penelope, i swear to god -" she's lost herself a lot, this past year. little bits of herself along the way. deleting the recording of spencer. manipulating penelope into breaking protocols. the entire situation with voight -

she's picked herself back up. put herself back where she wants to be, where she belongs. she can't stop what the job has taken from her - the pain, the loss, the fear.

she can stop it from taking her, though.

"i'm not letting anyone risk dying for me. that's ridiculous. no, that's worse than ridiculous; that's a failure on my part."

[careol]

@baukitten said: “ Give it one more try. ”

               carol   gives   the   younger   a   warning   look.      this   here?      this   was   not   her   world.      her   world   was   out   there,   on   the   field   with   the   team   looking   at   crime   scenes   and   going   over   evidence.      being   stuck   in   penelope’s   bat   cave   filled   with   technology?      suffice   to   say   it   was   not   her   forte.

               you   need   to   recover,   but   if   you   insist   on   coming   back   to   work   you   can   stay   back   here   with   garcia.      hotch’s   words   are   on   repeat   in   her   head,   and   she’s   pissed   off.      so   what   if   she’d   been   shot   in   the   leg   three   times   last   week?      she’s   fine,   she   can   walk!      wasn’t   that   all   that   was   necessary   for   her   to   head   back   out   there   and   catch   some   more   fucked   up   individuals?      apparently   not   according   to   the   boss.      but   was   it   hotch’s   order,   or   was   it   strauss?      hell,   maybe   it   was   both.

               ❝   i‘m   an   old   woman   garcia,   i   don’t   do   technology   beyond   a   flip   phone   and   a   very   basic   laptop.   ❞      she’s   only   in   her   forties,   but   still.      she’s   older   than   penelope.      ❝   you   don’t   have   to   try   and   keep   me   occupied   you   know.      i’m   not   gideon,   i   won’t   take   over   your   office   at   all.   ❞      she   remembers   that   time,   back   when   gideon   was   on   crutches   and   decided   to   stay   here.      the   poor   blonde   had   damn   near   lost   her   mind.      knowing   how   gideon   could   be,   she   can’t   say   she   blames   her.

[bauresurrected]

@baukitten / liked for a starter

"i'll be out of your hair in the morning." she could've been already. she should've been already. would've been, if she'd been left here, but then she and JJ had gone in when rossi had called. and it wasn't as if her car was nearby at all - that one is still at her own place, and the long story short is that she automatically ride shared back here instead of her own house, like some sort of fucked up automatic impulse. "thought I might as well help you clean up."

[bauresurrected]

“I can practically see the steam coming out of your ears.”

"how did you know i was considering retiring to become a tea kettle?" she sounds completely serious. as if she's ever going to retire. no, she's going to die in this job. ask her which is worse: doing it while sitting behind the desk, or out in the field. she won't answer the question while looking you in the eye.

"it's fine," she says, tongue pressed to her teeth, "it's all just fine."

[yoakkemae-archived]

💬 + i heard a rumor that you loved and missed your best friend in the whole wide world - me ! please confirm asap . @ spence

' your name isn't ethan ... ' there's a teasing grin on his face -- it's hopefully very clear that he is joking. he raises his hands to give her a hug. ' yes , i love and miss you. who else will nerd out about the latest season of doctor who with me ? '

[lovehoned]

“Do I look like a person in a mood to be argued with?” @ elle !

"garcia, in all the years i've known you, you've never looked like a person to be argued with." there's plenty that she's looked like. garcia is not exactly your cut and print FBI agent. she looks like if hello kitty and a pastel monster had a baby and gave it an ipad. "i have to argue anyway."