#bb.development

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JOURNAL 003.

FEBRUARY 12, 2015 - 8:23 PM

I love my job. I promise I do... Sometimes I just don't wanna be away from home? Like today, for instance... Today I really wish I was at home with my wife, laying in bed and running my fingers through her hair. I want to kiss her and tell her how much I love her over and over again.... I know it seems like I'm obsessing, but I can't seem to help myself?

I know that I would be miserable if I wasn't doing what I love, though, so I'll just have to keep that in mind... That and the excitement of the fans tend to make things better. Well, that and my bandmates. They're the best at sensing when I'm having one of my lower days... They're good at cheering me up. Still.. I'm relieved that it won't be long now.

Oh, and I haven't had a drink in a week. Baby steps.

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CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT 013

Has anyone realized that this Friday is Friday the 13th? And this task is our task number 13? Coincidence? I think so. I hope so.  But since it seems like we could use some good vibes to counteract all this (possible) bad luck, this week we're gonna be talking about something I'm sure you're all fond of and miss the most while on tour: home.

OPTION ONE

Tell us about your character's house. Describe the rooms, the neighborhood; explain if there's a special reason why they chose that house; tell us if they live with someone and with who. If your character has roommate(s) or live with their partner, then talk to the writers ooc and come together with how their place is distributed and decorated, how they decided to live together, how they found their place, so on and so forth. You can include all of these details if your character lives on their own, too. BONUS: Google search places (maybe use some real estate pages, or find some tumblr pages dedicated to house decor) and put together a photoset of your character's house.

OPTION TWO

Describe your character's favorite room of their house. If you don't want to talk about your character's entire house, then just talk about their favorite room and tell us why it's their favorite. 

These should be out of character, like previous head canon tasks. 

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Letter 03.

D E A R   D A D , 

I've tried so long not to hate you... I think it's just gotten to the point where I feel sorry for you now, you know? You disappointed your whole family, and turned into some kind of angry dictator... I used to love you. We'd play baseball in the backyard and you'd always play card games with me. But when you started drinking, things changed. When you hit mom the first time, I knew thing would never be the same.

I think what scares me the most is that I feel like I'm going to turn out like you? Ever time I drink, every time I overdo things... I can just imagine myself hurting someone I love and it makes me sick. You make me sick, Dad. Right now, I'm just doing my best so that I won't be that kind of husband or father.

Your son,

Cameron.

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Letter 02.

D E A R   C O U R T N E Y , 

You know who was a shitty big brother? Me. In the beginning, things were good. When you came around, I was so excited to have a sibling. Mom and Dad always told me what a huge responsibility I had and how you would look up to me and stuff? And I was so sure I was ready for it...

But then he drank. And he hit Mom. And he hit me. And, finally, he hit you... I will never forgive myself for waiting so long to help. I should've called Grandma and Grandpa and get you out of there... But I didn't. I let you watch things fall apart. Your dad became a villain in your eyes, and I was never someone to look up to...

I'm so sorry.

Cameron.

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Letter 01.

D E A R   M A D D I E , 

God, I love you. I tell you every day and I will never stop telling you. Since we were kids, I guess I knew on some level that we would end up together? Or at least I wanted it to happen... I always have. There's a million ways I could say how much I care, but I really hope that you just know by how I treat you... The last thing I want is for you to lose sight of that. I'm so scared that I'll end up being like my dad.

Then therard. e's this whole pregnancy thing. I know you want to start a family and it kills me that I can't give it to you. I know this is my fault and I hate myself for it. I want to have kids with you, but I'm the reason it's so hard for us... Sometimes I wish I could give you more.

I miss you more than anything.

Love,

Your husband

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bb development || letters / (3/?)

colter finnick baker,   my baby. writing a letter to you seems like the hardest thing in the world because I’m so overwhelmed with emotions right now over knowing that tomorrow you’re supposed to come into the world and meet me. the past 9 months have been such a learning curve for me and your dad, we’ve gone through fights, doubts, sicknesses, and come back full circle again every time. 9 months hardly seems like a long enough time to prepare myself for a lifetime of existing for the sole purpose of making sure you have the best life possible. but I’ve spent 9 months wondering what it would be like to finally have you in my arms and I’m ready. you’ve already changed my life and you haven’t even been born yet, I can’t imagine how my life is going to change once you get here.

I want to be the best mum in the world, and I know that sometimes I might not be, but I’m going to do my damnedest to make sure that I give you all of my understanding and patience throughout your life. I’m sorry for the times when I’ll get frustrated with you and for the times when I’ll get mad. I’m sorry for the times when I won’t seem strong and when you’ll doubt my ability to keep our family together. but I promise you that my love for you will always be stronger than any of those feelings and that no matter how frustrated or weak I become, you’ll always be my baby.

your dad, and your big sister and I are all very excited to meet you. they’re both wonderful and they’ll both always look out for you and take care of you if I’m ever not around and when I am. please be good to them. be good to your godfather too, he’s the kindest, gentlest person in the world and if you’re ever afraid to come to me and your dad, he’ll be there to give you all of the love and understanding that he’s given me throughout our years of friendship.

I can’t wait to meet you and I hope you get here soon.

love you forever, mum.

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