Mar 26
Weight update! It was slow going but I finally gained back what I lost in December/January! Here's hoping 280 will come faster than getting back up to 270 did!
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Weight update! It was slow going but I finally gained back what I lost in December/January! Here's hoping 280 will come faster than getting back up to 270 did!
This is so embarrassing and I can't believe it happened but I cracked the toilet seat today 😭
So I feel like it's time to come clean about something.
I honestly would have loved to have become a full time model years ago but I always held back because I've always been very self conscious of my chest, my breasts are very uneven and it's caused a lot of inner turmoil in my life. It's the biggest reason I never dated in my twenties because I felt I could never get naked in front of a partner, but as I've gotten older I've started to care less and accept it more. I think it's something about my body I'm always going to hate to some degree but there's nothing I can do about it so ¯\_🥲_/¯
That being said, I would like to do nude stuff on OF but I'm worried people won't like what they see 😥
I'm super close to reaching 280, think I'm gonna celebrate with a pie once I reach it! 🤤
Got weighed at the doctor's this morning! I'm up to 277 (with clothes on) my doctor blamed it on my increased insulin, no need to inform him about the wg shakes I've been drinking! 🤭
My package finally came! I ordered a bunch of snacks and, most importantly, maltodextrin powder to try!
I'm back home today, finally! I am not one for traveling, would much rather have a staycation, but ahh well!
Turns out my mom told my grandma all about the hiking debacle and my grandma lectured me in the car back from the airport about how I need to get in shape, I'm destroying my health and body, I need to get rid of the box of snacks in my room and start eating carrots and celery!
The whole time all I was thinking about was how I wanted to gulp down a disgusting amount of soda and stuff my face with greasy, deep fried deliciousness, how I'm actively trying to gain weight and how much I love being so lazy and unfit. A part of me wanted to just start laughing and admit what a pig I am and how proud I am of it! I almost asked her to stop for fast food when she was finished 😅
I'm sitting outside right now in a cheap folding chair and it is a little tight.
God I can't wait till I'm big enough to get wedged in chairs like this! 😵💫