dumb doll training #1
so, i think it will be beneficial for me to write these kind of things out as daddy trains me, i got a journal for this but typing is a bit easier. maybe daddy can give me prompts for these at some point hehe. im gonna ramble about the new changes we've made this week and how its changed my thinking already.
i explained to daddy that i find it super yummy to be called dumb and to be degraded. im a 4.0 student and starting up an etsy shop (aka normally smart), but daddy says im his dumb little doll. i also explained how i associate wearing pink with being dumb. so, he started having me paint my nails hot pink, its a constant reminder of just how dumb i am. i also started wearing pink more and encorporating it into my makeup as well. he also consistently reminds me of just how dumb i am. whenever i make mistakes or am confused, he uses that to enforce how dumb i am. we also switched up my mantra from "play every day, must obey. good girls rub their mind away" to "play every day, must obey. dumb girls rub their mind away"
results/how my thoughts have changed: i love the color pink, it is absolutely pretty. im daddys dumb little dolly and will do as daddy says because im too dumb to decide things on my own. thinking for myself is for smart girls and im daddys dumb little doll. the color pink or any reinforcement of how dumb i am makes my brain all spacey and i cant think very well.