Lemme start with the past week or so, not been feeling so good. Waking up a little under the weather pushing myself out of bed trying to find the meaning of why I should even go to work, or do anything at all. But, today was definitely icing on the cake. In the past 6 months or so I've completely turned my life around from what it was drinking, smoking, and just being a punk ass kid. In that time I've matured and come to realize the adult like way of life and suppressing my constant push comes to shove anger way of life. I've become more persevered, determined, motivated, and overall educated on my hobbies and In the work place. Which is all something I couldn't have done 6 months ago with my poor attitude and way of living. Throughout that whole period, I had a girlfriend who wanted to commit to this kind of change as well(at the time). We continued and went to AA and supported each other all the way through it and found good hobbies and enjoyed the time we had together and got full time jobs and made it works the love of my entire life. ...well for a little while. As of the past couple weeks I could sense the change in her behavior and it made me react on it kinda hard. I'm pretty insecure and tend to ask a million questions when I know something is up. I try not to be that way, but were creatures of habit and it comforts me to hear things a million times so to speak. Moving along, last week this time she slipped up drinking and I forgave her. I thought to myself "fuck it" it happens, you weren't out of control I love you and wanna support you and help you through. Well, while at work last night it happened again. This time with another guy and was sent nasty texts of it all. This morning when I woke up to all this, I couldn't think straight, I was shaky, nervous a complete wreck. But I told myself to stay calm and move forward. I worked on my guitar project, sanding and painting this guitar and it completely released my feelings. It completely put the thought away of what just happened to me and instead of being hung up and putting that anger in a much worse place, I stuck it into something constructive and made something real cool and felt awesome about it. My moral here is, (not trying to preach to anyone) but that anything bad can happen and you can get in slumps and even have the worst feeling or worst scenario play out like I did. But it's VERY important to stick those feelings into something self expressive and constructive. It's never the end of the world and most of the bad that happen to us change us in a good way to make us look at something from a different light and angle. So right now still being alittle bent out of shape and upset but I know I'm gonna be alright. I'm strong, independent and I know I can take this on in stride. It's part of the nature of life and I'm sure there's someone with a worse story than mine and that's why I keep my chin up.