𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐍𝐄𝐗𝐓? — minjae auditioning for @studiodelta
that wasn’t the first time jung minjae found herself in front of a camera — it was, however, the first time she felt the slightly uncomfortable feeling of performing while no actual person was watching. both nowadays and before, minjae was pretty sure she performed a lot better when there were eyes on her. in figure skating, the judges’ admiration and the fear of her mother’s insults afterwards had always pushed her to do her best — now, in the clubs she worked at, the public made her feel powerful enough to put up the most mesmerizing shows. standing in the dancing studio one of her teachers had been kind enough to let her rent for the morning, minjae couldn’t help but stare at herself in the mirror and find herself annoying as hell. the camera was a mechanical eye set on her on the tripod, and she’d even gone as far as putting a few teddy bears in the background as if they were some spectators to her show. in post-production, she was gonna make sure they moved and cheered like guests to her dancing tea party.
the choreography and scenography she’d set up completed the vibe she’d tried to set with the plushies and her hair and makeup as well. from her clothes, to her makeup, to the fancy small table with cups, a teapot, and colorful cupcakes she’d placed in the middle of the room were supposed to make it look like she was a modern, female version ofthe mad hatterdancing in the middle of wonderland.
too bad her perfectionism was taking the best of her. she’d recorded the same performance twenty times already, but it still wasn’t good enough. it was, also, the first time she tried dancing and singing for the whole performance, so that made things a hundred times worse. she was pretty sure there were so many better girl artists out there, but still she wanted to prove to those watching and to herself that she’d made some progress from the last time she’d submitted an application, months ago.
so minjae stopped midway, stopped recording, and took the deepest breath. she got this, next one was going to be the good one.
adjusting the lights once again, checking her makeup in the mirror wall… she finally pressed rec and she started moving. the song wasn’t hers, but it ran through her body like it was part of her soul. the choreo she’d prepared, the moves she’d spent months learning—— despite how many times she’d tried it that day, all of a sudden it all flew smoothly for the first time. even her voice, following the notes, sounded better than it ever did. sure enough, she was never going to be a lead singer, but it was something that definitely added to the quality of her dancing, a plus that made her look less like a moving doll and more like an actual character in the story she was portraying.
the mad hatter danced, lost herself in a world were tea was the only thing turning a grey day into a colorful one, before discovering dance — minjae wondered several times whether it wasn’t a bit too obvious what she was actually portraying, that tea was a very different addiction and that it was all about how dancing and performing had saved her.
and when the music stopped, that smile was on her face. of course was going to cut the next few seconds from the clip she was about to send for the audition, but minjae finally found herself dropping to the ground, a smile on her lips and satisfaction in her core. it wasn’t perfect, but neither was her. that feeling inside her chest, though… she couldn’t remember the last time she’d felt so proud of herself, whether she was going to succeed or not.
music inspired by: cheshire by itzy
skills showcasing: dancing, choreography, singing
makeup & outfit: inspired by this and this (without the wigs lol)