— TADC SPOILERS AND ANALYSIS —
I think Jax’s torture room segment was really about him being forced out of his protections, his shell, his walls, and all of the people he cares about laughing at the real Jax underneath— at least, the most raw version of Jax. I think he makes himself and everything around him out to be a joke so that he can laugh before anyone else does. After all, if you were never serious in the first place, it hurts WAY less to be laughed at. It doesn’t stop hurting, but it’s much easier to deflect. The peeling of his skin to show her raw silicone skeleton, all her genuine feelings, her guts and bones, all her most vulnerable parts, to be completely out of control about the perception of her by the people she cares about most is her greatest fear.
She’s fucking terrified of what her friends and family would think about the real her, the her that she deems so pathetic, so much so that she’s convinced that everyone else is a fucking idiot for being genuine. That, or they’re trying to trick her into a false sense of security so they can rip off his carefully maintained and constructed skin to reveal her underneath. Jax so desperately wants his face to be the only part of him and it makes her sick that there’s more underneath.