#beatboxgal

[beatboxgal]

For anyone wondering what's going on with me...

I've been bouncing back and forth between things like bootsales (like a flea market) and fun mornings with a bunch of new friends (Wednesdays). Drawing wise I've been busy working on a the big project of drawing 3 seperate ref sheets for my amasing mate BlackDogg (FA) (one for each of his main characters).So as you might guess I'm trying my best to sketch everything out in preparation for making the digital refs. I have been treating this project as if it were a paid commission too. In a little side note, sometime between trying to fill these 3 ref sheets with as much detail and love as I can manage or maybe afterward I'll be attempting to make another commission price sheet (which will probably just get ignored like the old one but I want to make one anyways) That's all for this journal, thanks for reading bbg <3

[rimbaud-te]

holy shit, im actually getting likes and stuff :3  thank you people, you give me good feels ^-^

[beatboxgal]

There is something I have to say...

I know that a good amount of people that like my art or they like me as a person are in the same rut I'm in.

I know that they sometimes just ignore certain posts/ blogs to avoid drama and other things that make them uncomfortable.

Even though I know these things it still doesn't stop me from wondering if everyone is just pretending to like me... to make me feel better or some other reason...

I've gone to a very dark place and come back multiple times now, I come back because there are rays of light at the end of the tunnel, so close to me even though in reality they are thousands of miles away.

These rays of light are the reason I still draw even though I firmly believe I'm shitty, they are the reason I keep trying to get a job even when there aren't any and the brightest rays of light... are the reason I'm still around to say this.

I want to thank all of the people who have been my rays of light, new friends and old ones alike I thank you all for caring about me, for believing in me... for being there for me.

Thankyou, all of you

bbg

[beatboxgal]

I’m so excited to tell you guys

That I’ve been working on a secrety project today that I hope your gonna love :D

I just finished uploading it so feel free to check it out https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eMPpYGZIns4&feature=youtu.be