#bedilia

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player characters from an all-bards-all-weird one shot (now two shot because i accidentally broke the game oops). Verdan creation bard Yaet, Dhampir whispers bard Todd (the demon bard of fleet street), Reborn “halfling” spirits bard Bedilia, and my changeling glamour bard Strawberry Sunset-Dreams Forever. We’re all incredibly stupid and slightly insane I love it.

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bedilia replied to your post: should i temporarily switch my url to...

HEY MAMA BY KANYE WEST ?

i know youre MEMEING but you missed an opportunity as kanye has a song called Runaway so the JOKES ON YOU

[idunnothingsilike]

The traumatized are unpredictable because we know we can survive. You can survive this happening to you.

Dr. Bedelia Du Maurier

[embraced-by-eccentricity]

Hannibal season 3

[femmefatalegoth]

In which Bedeila is Lady Macbeth agan.

Hannibal/Shakespeare series:19

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Bedelia - (Hannibal Spoilers)

Guys, Bedelia did NOT chop off her own leg. Bedelia has not decided to explore autocannibalism on her own terms. Now, this show is fantastical, but not to the point that a woman could pump herself full of drugs and then without medical experience remove her own leg, neatly bandage her stump, pit-roast a 20+ lb hunk of flesh, gloriously set the table, fancy herself up, and not even have a crutch at hand. I mean, c’mon. Seriously. For fuck’s sake. Ignoring all of that is like ignoring that rain is wet, but even so I’ll humor the notion: if Bedelia did it to herself she lost, lost herself as much as she lost to Hannibal. To do it to herself that makes her a victim in a way Hannibal alone could never reduce her to. And she was never a victim…she was a stone-cold survivalist, at all costs. It would be completely off-character. In no known universe would this character do this to herself, even if such a thing were remotely possible. Which it’s not. Because this isn’t Harry Fucking Potter, magic does not exist. She looked drugged, and scared, and resolved….and strangely….expectant? And also strangely….avid? I read the scene as Hannibal and Will are elsewhere in the house, and will soon be joining her for dinner. Notice her plate contains snails - I assume Hannibal’s act of mercy is to not make her eat herself?  She’s ready for them, ready for her becoming. The hiding of the fork in her lap is a last act. She’s going….to prick Hannibal? She certainly will not fend anyone off, certainly will not save herself. No, it’s almost like a fetish, something ultimately useless to cling to so as to give her strength for the dinner she’s about to endure. I imagine there’s a sense of relief mixed in there as well, as the expectancy of “will he or won’t he” is over. I think not knowing if/when he’d come for her was in some ways more torturous than the reality of being eaten. Hence the air of avid/expectancy? So she will go out on her own terms. They may take her life, but they will not take her composure. They will not reduce her self.

[pocketwinchester]

Bedilia: “You haven’t learned your lesson, have you? Or did you just miss him that much?”

Will: “Eh, a little of column A, a little of column B.” 

[pocketwinchester]

Okay but how is she not in prison?