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✨personal update from yours truly✨

Hi y’all. I just wanted to hop on here and explain myself for basically invisible manning for over a year.

The short version is my partner and I ended things in a very horrible way. Cheating, abuse, the works. Shortly after that I was laid off of my marketing job. Shortly after THAT my father (whom I am super close with) had open heart surgery with complications. And my 20 year old cat passed away. So, in laymen’s terms? Shit has been utterly Fucked™️ since 12/22.

Things are slowly untangling themselves from their fucky little threads. I live closer to the city (that’s Chicago for me), gone low contact with my mother, got a wonderful boyfriend who doesn’t ever make me feel like my mental illness is a burden to him and a best friend in my life who doesn’t make me feel small and stupid. I’ve recovered from another ✨attempt✨ and I’m steadily working towards a management position in my field.

I say all this because I’ve been getting a lot of comments on my fics. Saying these really wonderful things which make me cry and I gleefully read to my boy who literally cannot watch shameless because it reminds him of his upbringing but loving listens to me ramble on about it.

I say all this because I feel like I’ve abandoned a community that was like a light to me. It inspired me. It comforted me. And it gave me some really wonderful connections. And I’m sorry that I haven’t played tag games in a while, or responded to dms, or been active, or written a single word that wasn’t marketing copy in over a year.

I say this because you all have meant so much to me. And in some way my words have meant something to you. And that’s not only super powerful but really why I wanted to write in the first place when I was a lonely little kid being SA’ed by a relative.

I don’t think I can write right now. And to be honest, I don’t know if I ever will. But this community has touched me and made me feel less alone. And I couldn’t go any longer without thanking each and everyone one of you that call this community a home too.

I’m getting better. I’m healing. I’m not floating on my back in the proverbial pool before I break up with my true love on the stoop of my house. If anything, I’m kneeling on a sticky floor of some club, crutches tossed aside and knuckles bloody telling you all that I love you. More than anything. And I’ll be back eventually. Just not now.

I love y’all so much. Really. And thank you for everything.

- Bee ❤️

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picrew time babes!!!

I was tagged by the RADDEST crew of people on planet earth to do this pic crew. Thank y’all so much! @squirrelfund @tomorrowillmissyou @surviving-maybe I love each of you so very much!!

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Back by unpopular demand: Me and my Shameless alignment charts. 

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28. What are sexual kinks/ fantasies they are too embarrassed to tell anyone?

Y'all are getting spicy on Anon. We love to see it.

So Mickey is easy. He's way to chicken to admit it, but he really loves soft sex. Like spooning, cuddly sex. I think he had this fantasy of having sex in a hotel bathtub, and on a bed of rose petals. All that sappy shit that he pretends to hate.

Ian is a little bit more difficult. But if I had to guess based on his (or MY assumption) like of public sex/the thrill of getting caught, he might like voyeurism? Like maybe along the lines of watching Mickey (with his consent of course) shower or masturbate? But I think he'd been too embarrassed to tell Mickey about it because it makes him feel like a creeper.

Ask me a Gallavich Headcannon :)

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7 and 11 for the ask meme please? 💖💖

Hi! I’m so sorry this took so long to answer! (From this in case anyone forgot!)

7. Domestic headcanon?

Mickey and Ian don’t have a chore wheel, but they have chores they refuse to do. Mickey hates doing laundry (and has a minor habit of taking shit from the laundry room that is not his!), so Ian does the laundry. Ian hates doing dishes because he was usually the one to do them for both him AND Lip when Fiona delegated, so Mickey does them.

They have coffee mugs with ‘Domestic Bitch 1′ and ‘Domestic Bitch 2′ on them that Sandy got them for a wedding gift. 

They meal plan. Ian loves making breakfast for dinner. Mickey loves tacos.

Mickey never picks his socks up off the floor. Ian forgets to but trash bags back into the can after he takes out the trash. 

They rock, paper, scissor for who has to clean the bathroom.

Mickey argues with fruit sellers at the Farmers Market (which they go to every Saturday). Ian and the tomato growers chat about gardening

Mickey routinely goes with Ian to the rooftop garden on their condo. He doesn’t garden (except for the weed plant in their guest bedroom), but he likes to lie out in the sun while Ian tends to his little plants. 

Ian is a bad gardener. But he’s trying!

Mickey threatens anyone who laughs at Ian’s fucked up little tomatoes or his shriveled little herbs.

Every night before they go to bed, they watch Dance Moms or Bad Girls Club, cuddled up on the couch and then they go to bed, happy and content and ready for another thankfully uneventful day <3

11. What fanfic/fanart/headcanon do you wish was canon?

I really like the headcanon that Mickey is fluent in Spanish. I also really dig the whole Tami x Mickey BROTP thing. And as far as I know Sandy and Debbie are back together both parenting Franny. Lastly, THICC MICKEY MILKOVICH!!!!!!!

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A mutual uploaded some meme templates and now I’m making everyone suffer. 

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