#beedesousa

[sworngolds]

after all this time || elianca

eli: his mind filled with nothing but her, nothing but the sheer fact that his happiness had been so risen because of the brunette. their time together had been so long-gated, that it wasn't confusing that his feelings were true, that he was more than just in a 'like' relationship with her. the kiss was lingering in his mind more than anything, that night, the night had been only days ago, but it continued to play over in his head. there was no way he could let her believe he wasn't wanting of her. shutting the door of his car, he made his way up to her door, unsure of what the words he was going to say, he knew that it had to be now, his confession was what he had to get off his chest, his heart beating out of it.

[tristanxmilligans-blog]

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Bianca had finally made good on her promise slash threat to sneak Tristan into one of the clubs she likes, and he had to admit that it was fun. He wasn’t drunk, but he had allowed himself one drink, having budgeted a calorie deficit into his dinner for it, and it was just enough of a buzz to make him feel less self-conscious. He danced with her to the pounding bass of the music and tried not to compare himself to her. She was beautiful, graceful in a way he would never be, and he felt a sudden fierce rush of love for her as she tossed her hair back and closed her eyes. This is how she should always be, carefree and dancing for the fun of it, not because she had to.

@bee-desousa

[sworngolds]

Psst, want

@bee-desousa

Psst: Three things that I’ve always wanted to tell you.

who i am, i mean like who i really am, like everything.

julia, more about her, you should know

the ultimate true feelings i have for you

Want: Three things I would do to you if we were alone.

kiss you, it would be sudden and quick at first. i wouldn’t let you even speak at first. it’s been far too long, and hell i know that i have been wanting to for so long. i’m not even sure if you would want me to, but i wouldn’t regret it if you told me to stop

hold you/cuddle with you. it truly was one of the best things we did 

talk to you/laugh with you. you’re the funniest person i honestly know.

[sworngolds]

Mwah

Mwah: Three people I’d like to kiss.

Jennifer Lawerence, Emma Stone, but mostly Bianca DeSousa

@bee-desousa

[sworngolds]

@bee-desousa

[sworngolds]

How does it make you feel that Bianca and Owen are sharing a bed?

Are they?

@bee-desousa @the-cool-milligan

[sworngolds]

thoughts

Bianca DeSousa is basically the one person that I was always missing in my life.  She is what makes me fully whole, She is far more talented at dancing, laughing and having a good time than I am.  She is rather blunt and will tell you exactly how it is, she is true at heart. She does in fact wear her heart on her sleeve, even if she think she’s not capable of feeling it.  She came into my life when I was at a fucked up part of it, and she has always stayed true.

[sworngolds]

You’re better off here|| Elianca

♫

The caffeine rush was the only thing fueling Eli for the day, the fact was, it had only been three hours since he was released, and even though his therapist insisted on him staying longer, Eli knew that he didn’t belong here truly.  The second time around was more eye opening merely because he had admitted himself.  His judgement begged to race over to Bianca and speak to her about all the manners of who they were, and mostly what they were.  His journal had filled with her name, wondering what her thought were about the mess of him.  After the Dot, he drove over to her house, unsure if she would even see him, unsure if she hated him or not.  He sat in this car, looking at the front of her place, his heart beating quickly than ever, the anticipation was only growing worse as he shut the door, stepping closer to the door, as he stood there in silent, as he looked back at his car, but she had all the right to answer, why and what he was doing with himself, she as someone he cared about, had all the right.  Knocking, he pursed his lips closed as he wondered if a regret should be filling him, the silence of nothing rang through his ears.