Blueprint
I listened to the best radio show on French radio ! maybe not "the" best but in line with what I'm trying to do being 33... it's called "A ton age" and the person interviewed was 44. She talked about her, what she learnt in her life and what she wants from life now. It was pretty personnal. She sounded like she almost cried a few times. I liked the way she said she was drawing a blueprint of her life (that was in fact a blueprint of her mom's life) until her mom died a few years ago. She was in a permanent state of failure because she compared herself to her mom at the same age, and her mom had 5 kids and was happily married. Now she doesn't make big plans any more, she's just trying to enjoy it as it is. I'm probably in that situation too, drawing a lot of blueprints, trying a lot of things but not sure what to choose yet.