#being pessimistic

[pirateofaltia]

people are often surprised that I am an optimistic person but the thing they don't know is that I have to be optismistic.

when you have an anxiety disorder, being a pessimist is not an option. if I let myself be even just a little bit pessimistic about something, I will just spiral out of control into very negative thoughts.

[twatkcox]

The Uncertain Future

Life can be unpredictable sometimes. No one knows what lies beyond the future unless one has the power to foresee events.

Looking forward to a brighter tomorrow may be incredibly pleasant for those who lived a fulfilling happy life, but it can be unrealistic for those who lived a miserably depressing life. A pessimistic person such as myself would probably get…

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[procratinatingpotato-blog]

C-3PO sums up my life at school

[shipperholic-me]

I think Scoot will come and save Lydia. Not stiles. Because lets face it, its Jeff Davis.

[myonlinediarie]

I'm happy.

I'm really fucking happy and I don't want it to stop.

[flesh-in-ivy-blog]

so many people are going on a senior trip. grr. i tried to get it all together. but no. this is super. i want to go camping. with my three best friends. 

[phokingkawaii]

I bet you SM pays people to spread false rumors to get fangirls all excited so that they can crush out hearts when September rolls around and there is no album. 

[bluebonne-blog]

Things I'm realizing.

Aggravating rapid Spanish (in other words, arguments) between adults and children, specifically between moms and children, brings me anxiety. Living with a host family in Ecuador for six months with a host mom who seemed to be perpetually pissed at her 13 year old daughter brought me anxiety. And it's left an imprint.

Wooster doesn't have a whole lot to do to entertain guests. My dad and brother are here for the night. I took them to get BBQ at a recommended restaurant. Because they love meat. And it was pretty good. And then we drove through Amish country. But, everything closes at 3 or 6. And tomorrow, 85% of everything is closed.

The SIP sucks. Reading scientific articles on plant genetics sucks. Not understanding the articles sucks. Working with pipettes all day sucks. 

I'm being real awfully pessimistic.

I'm not as alone here as I would like to be. That may be a pretentious thing to say. There's this guy that keeps asking me to do things. Like go out to eat. But I'd rather sit home alone, watch parks and recreation, drink my beer, and read some science that I won't understand.

I really don't understand genetics.

Though I'm now used to it, my apartment is probably a shit hole. My dad will not eat here tomorrow for breakfast. "Not in that apartment." Thanks Dad.