#beinggaysucks

[homo-phobic-homo]

I’m tired of being forced to explain that I DO want a serious relationship to my (straight) friends who apparently think that being single is a choice I’ve made. No, I haven’t chosen to be treated like shit by guys. No, I haven’t asked to be lied to and led on by douchebags. And no, I don’t enjoy hooking up with guys and never hearing from them again after being told that they were at least looking for some kind of fwb situation. I hook up, because that’s my only option when all of the men I meet are too self-absorbed to put effort into developing any kind of relationship. It’s either hook up or be celibate, and I would be even more miserable if I didn’t at least get laid every once in a while. I will be 30 soon, and it won’t get any easier to find someone... The future is bleak.

[homo-phobic-homo]

Karma isn’t real.

I made one of those decisions today that I immediately regretted. I looked up my ex. I haven’t seen or spoken to him since we broke up. I haven’t even looked him up on any kind of social media. We had a long-distance relationship, and we broke up when I found out he had been cheating on me (with multiple guys) for most the time we were together. Well, I looked him up today... He’s engaged. For some reason, he wen’t from hoeing around while we were together to proposing to a guy he had only been dating for a few months. I am the kind of person who is loyal to a fault. That’s why, when I found out he’d been cheating on me, I honestly could not believe it at first... How do guys do it? How do they treat you like shit, feel no remorse whatsoever, then turn around and play the perfect boyfriend for someone else? I honestly don’t care about him as a person anymore. I’m just tired of being the one who gets shit all over, and the jerks go on to live happily ever after.

[mikeelliott]

I just...I just don’t wanna be gay anymore.