#belakqwa

[trilliath]

freyasfolly

Your stomach is talking through your brain

Hahahha I mean, that’s USUALLY how stomachs talk (since the whole “audibly rumbling stomach” thing doesn’t work how it’s described in fics - it doesn’t actually correlate to hunger, it is just digestion). I mean, we’re not bodies, after all, we’re brains inside skulls piloting meat-jaegers hehehe. But my stomach has developed a very distinct maudlin voice of late and it’s kinda freaky. Mind of its own XD.

triggertinks

Just a chemical imbalance, eat something, set an alarm, keep an apple in your bag? I get very distressed like crying if I leave it too long

Yeah no I’m not like chronically forgetting to eat I just do it occasionally like anyone who doesn’t like living on a regimented schedule. Most people get cranky or stressed or otherwise emotional when hungry but I was just commenting on the fact that it’s a change from my normal patterns that I have started getting very specifically SAD, which is rare for me - even when my depression is at its worst it’s not common for me to feel the specific emotion of intense sadness.

belakqwa

Isn’t serotonin produced in the guts? I can get really emotional and sad as well if I’m hungry. I can not notice hunger itself but realize I am after I notice how cranky and anxious I become.

Ok wow so... it has been a decade since my abnormal and neurochem and neuropsych courses so that’s actually some research I wasn’t aware of. That’s so COOL! Honestly a decade ago the discussion was along the line of “Well, we don’t really know how they work, but we know dopamine and serotonin are super important”. That might also explain what’s going on with me because I’ve had some significant illnesses this year that have fucked up my immune system and my gut bacteria and I’m only recently getting back on some probiotics to help with all that. I mean, I’ve been feeling a little better emotionally overall too since I started taking them so hmm... that would make sense if my gut serotonin levels are shifting right now that I might experience things a little differently. Thanks for telling me that, I’m surprised I hadn’t heard about it haha! I have some research papers to go read now hmm. Nifty.

[trilliath]

belakqwa

Russian? Recently tried to explain instrumental case to an American student and failed miserably because even as Russian-speaker it's hard to explain to other Russian-speakers. I use it easily but only because I grew up with a language.

Yep, русский язык! It’s so funny how there’s different layers of understanding, with written, verbal, formal structural, implicit... Like, someone can have a perfect sense of whether a sentence was “right” but be completely unable to explain why, or not know the formal rules/exceptions for something. I mean, if you asked me to describe grammatical structures in English I’d fail pretty hard. I have a bit of an excuse in that I skipped a ton of formal english education because reasons, but since I was such an avid reader I have tons of implicit grammar knowledge and could ace everything that didn’t require me to know literally what the fuck a participle is.

Some of it makes sense, like, i guess the “a” ending words get an “ой” ending in the instrumental case, like, the object is in use, is an instrument, i.e. “вилка” is “a fork” but “I am eating with a fork” is “я ем вилкой”... not the easiest to remember because it’s such a different syntactical order, but I can read it and understand it pretty quickly for those simple ones.

But apparently, “the road goes to the bridge” is “дорога идёт к мосту” though and I have no idea why it’s a “y” ending for “bridge” or a “k” for “to” so... *shrug*

Still, it’s fun! And I admire the efficiency of the instrumental case and others, even if it’s a challenge. :D

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belakqwa replied to your photoset:Taking selfies in Starbucks cuz I’m a goofball...

you look awesome! And so happy!

thank you so much!! And I was, I felt pretty :)

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belakqwa replied to your post:

Applying for study abroad is the most complicated,...

where are you applying

I’ve been accepted to Colorado State University for next year, I’m trying to do all the housing applications and course registration but none of it is set up for exchange students.

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belakqwa replied to your post: Idk if this is still relevant, but I definitely...

just yesterday one Black person told “no wonder you all are extinct” to an Armenian person in the context of talking about Armenian genocide. She said that she doesn’t give a fuck about it because “Armenians are White”. How is it not racist?!

this honestly i think is an unfortunate instance where someone from a group that does have every reason to be angry about white supremacy has forgotten that just because certain ethnic groups are able to be racialised as white in the US (i’m not entirely sure if all Armenians are seen as white or ID that way too tho?), it does not mean they cannot face racism and genocide elsewhere. it sounds like they were imposing the dynamics of US racism on Ottoman Turkey.

armenians having white skin did literally 0 for them in the Ottoman Empire. zero, because in much of the world, people care about ethnicity. them being ‘white’ in the US is totally irrelevant to the Armenian genocide- after all, privilege in Ottoman Turkey is about being from the majority ethnic group aka being Turkish. 

antiblack and other colourist racism exists BUT alongside are other forms of ethnicity-based racism in this world.

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belakqwa replied to your post: itallstartedwithharry: A submissive k...

That is really wonderful. I’m always confused by the doms who want all subs that are not theirs act submissive around them. Why? It doesn’t make any sense, they are not these subs’ doms. Politeness is required but submission is only granted for your own dom because it’s something you give him willingly and with joy. It would be weird to submit to every dom around, then how is your submission a gift?

I loved that post too. And I totally agree - it’s always been a pet peeve of mine to see people messaging Dom blogs etc. and throw titles at them and the people respond similarly. The concept of submission being a gift is really important to me, given to those to deserve it. I can’t imagine submitting to just anyone and everyone.

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belakqwa replied to your post “alooyu replied to your post: Germanwings Co-Pilot Deliberately Cras…...”

IDK that's why I didn't believe this version till I heard that they said that he hadn't been unconscious and had been physically alright (IDK, I believe they have some kind of way recording that information, IDK how it exactly works though) I tend not to believe in worse in people and just in worse till I get the exact information and proof that it's true. That's why I didn't want to think that he killed himself by taking 149 people lives

me too...but from what i gather they think it’s deliberate because he did punch in an override that stopped the senior pilot from opening the door from outside with an emergency code. plus he had to manually adjust the controls to put the plane in its descent, because it was otherwise programmed to be cruising at 38,000 feet as it was still pretty far from its destination.

plus no distress call at all, which would have been really easy...

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theraynealchemist replied to your post:the annoying thing about having wavy/curly hair is...

I know this struggle too well. My mix gives me very tight dry curls and if I don’t moisturize them immediately they look like shit in the next half hour. I actually cut my hair really short for now just cuz I was getting tired of the long curly hair

yeah curly hair is so traitorous omg you don’t moisturise it and then BOOM “have fun looking shitty all day, human”. tho mine gives me a bit more grace time to moisturise before it decides to look ugly as hell haha. I can’t really cut my hair short because my hair is the type that gets even messier haha. when it’s long the weight kind helps, plus I can braid/bun it up.

belakqwa replied to your post :the annoying thing about having wavy/curly hair is...

my hair is really oily so I wash it every 24 hours but it’s also wavy and when it dries it looks like a freaking mess, ugh. And when it’s getting oily and dirty and I have to wash it - only THEN it starts looking good. I’m so furious every time x))))

lmao curly/wavy hair is like that...it looks good when you actually haven’t washed it for a while because it settles down into its nice waves. clearly it evolved in an era before regular baths and failed to adapt! pffff.