focus (or lack thereof)
If y’all have been following my saga, you may have heard that I have reached a point where I can’t read fic without my eyes going half-mast and getting bored and losing the plot.
I now think that it is not the Viibryd withdrawal--it’s been at least 4 weeks and all the other symptoms are gone--but instead the very powerful Belbuca opiod I’m taking, the removes most of my chronic pain (I have breakthrough every day but the rest of the time is a release of pain I haven’t had in years).
So what happens now? Being able to read is a major source of pleasure and getting through the day. Can I force myself to learn how to focus in this new, freaky can’t-read land? Do I just do caffeine all day long (which doesn’t seem to counteract it much)? Stopping the Belbuca is not at all interesting to me right now because I just haven’t been this much out of pain in a long time.
(As I type this I’m in level 5 pain from my left back. But all the other pains are...not there. Unheard of.)