#bellafictive

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Hey, uh. To other Jax kins and fictives, whether you still go by that name or not. I know that the finale was… a lot. Fucking embarrassing, for one thing, but also just harrowing as all hell.

Just wanna say that we’re all here now, right? I know it sounds corny but we’ve got another shot. I… personally don’t wanna ruin this one, yknow.

So… Yeah, feel all those awful ways, and then, like… I dunno, find something that makes you happy and comfortable and latch onto it. I’m still looking for it, for sure, but it’s gotta be out there, right?

Yeah. This probably sounds stupid, but. Idk. Ragatha says I need to try being more sincere or whatever.

-Bella, formerly known as Jax. (Tag as fictive.)

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[fictionkinfessions]

Sent a message yesterday about trying to figure out a new name. Well, for right now at least, I’m going by Bella. I’ve always really liked that name. It feels right. Might not stick, but I’m hoping it does.

Anyways, I’ve kind of taken over a protector role in my system. Which is fucking crazy considering who I am in source — my whole thing is being mean and self-destructive — but brains are weird I guess. Maybe this is the world’s way of trying to get me to be responsible for once in my stupid life. Idk.

-Bella, formerly known as Jax, from The Amazing Digital Circus. (Tag as fictive.)

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so today i got so angry over my life in my canon-compliant timeline that i wound up accidentally dislocating the body's thumb. we're okay, but it hurts. at least it provided a good 25 minute distraction from my anger. -bella (#🖤bella16) (tag as fictive)

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my headmate made a joke about canon me maybe not being able to read and the more i think about it the more i think shx might be right. like it just makes so much more sense now. -bella (#🖤bella16) (tag as fictive)

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(pls post January 13) *sigh* hey, delphi. happy birthday. 24, right? g-d, im sorry about this. i know we didn't spend a lot of time together, but just please know your father and i would be so proud of what you've done with your life. love, mom. -bella (#🖤bella16) (tag as fictive)