A Heart Pangs fanfic. All characters in this fic belong to @mmmleckerlecker Merry Christmas 🎄
With the changing of the seasons comes the arrival of the coveted invitations to Bakula’s Christmas Bonanza. The fresh flurries in the air signal to Facility staff that they should be expecting it anytime now. Finding out who got one and who didn't always created a stir around the offices. It was a sign of who was on the Supervisor's good side and who wasn't. The party's also a no phone zone with the promise that whatever happens there stays there.
One day before the party, Lux finally receives his invite.
"Here, Feuerbach. You should bring that little friend with you, what's his name again? Benny? Bingo?" Bakula asks as he slides the red and gold envelope across Lux’s desk.
"Benji," Lux corrects.
"Ah yes, Benji. Bring him, I think he'll have a fun time at the party. He's sort of become an unofficial mascot for us higher ups. We just think it's so inspiring how he doesn't let anything break his spirits, it would really spread the festive cheer seeing his face."
"My boyfriend is not some prop to parade around. Sorry sir, but I have to decline the invitation if that's how you feel."
"You will be bringing him if you want to continue working here after the holiday weekend. I know someone with your needs can't afford to lose a job like this."
Lux grits his teeth and takes the envelope. "We'll see you tomorrow."
"Excellent," the Supervisor responds with his classic chilling smile.
Lux finishes his paper work and clocks out. Once in his car he let's out a long sigh, unsure of how long he'd been holding his breath. Since returning to work, tension has been high between Lux and other workers. Some made it very apparent that they were unhappy that the Golden Boy was back with seemingly no repercussions. Others welcomed him with warm smiles and hugs. No matter what though, all eyes have been on him the past couple months. The invitation however made it clear where Bakula stood.
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"Honey, I'm home," Felix calls out to his house, the air now filled with life and love.
"I'm in the kitchen, dinner will be out shortly," Benji calls back.
Felix closes his eyes and takes in the warm smell of cooking beef, potatoes, and carrots. He was never a fan of beef stew, that was until he tried Benji’s. Benji has a way of cooking it to where all the vegetables are perfectly cooked and yet the meat keeps a slightly rare center. Felix opens his eyes and moves to the dining room. After setting the table, Felix patiently waits for the filling meal to bring out the hot stew. Benji comes from the kitchen with a "ta-da" flourish and places the meal between them.
"How do you always know when I need something like this," Felix asks as he fills up his bowl.
Benji raises his shoulders in a shrug as he spoons the dinner into his own dish. "It just seemed about time. Why? Cecil drama again?"
"No, he's back to having his nose up my ass," Felix pauses to eat a large spoonful, "I got my invitation to Bakula’s party today."
"Congrats! I was worried it wouldn't be coming."
"That's not all though. He insists that I bring you too."
The utensil falls from Benji’s hand and clanks against the ceramic bowl. His mouth agape as he looks to his boyfriend for any tell that he's joking. Quickly Benji realizes that Felix’s not.
"And what did you tell him?" Benji interrogates through slightly gritted teeth.
"I said that we'd be there."
"What! Why?" Benji shouts as he stands from the table. "After everything he put us through, do you really not see how this has got to be another set up or something."
The wolf turned sheep looks away from his angered friend. "He threatened to fire me if I didn't."
"Did you even consider how that potentially puts me in danger?"
"Benji I-"
"I need to talk to Camille about this," Benji interrupts.
He picks up his bowl and takes it to the bedroom he and Felix share. Felix listens carefully and sure enough he hears the door lock behind Benji. Felix finishes his serving of the meal in partial silence, the ticking of the kitchen clock and Benji’s muffled voice keep him company. Once done, Felix stores the remainder away in the fridge and washes dishes. Without Benji there to assist with drying, Felix leaves them on the rack. He then makes his way upstairs and lightly taps on the bedroom door.
"Benji I promise I wouldn't have brought it up if I thought you'd be in any danger. We don't have to stay long, just enough for him to see we showed up."
"30 minutes max, then we go."
"Then we go," Felix agrees.
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The pair arrive at the Bakula residence wearing matching Christmas sweaters that say "Naughty" and "Nice". In Felix’s hand is a wrapped bottle of Bakula’s favorite brand of whiskey.
"Very nice to see you both," Bakula greets as he opens the door, on his head is a Santa hat. "Come inside, the party is just getting started."
Benji closely follows the two preds as they all enter the house. At the front they drop their phones into a filled bucket. To Benji’s surprise, he's not the only prey at the party, though he is the only one without cropped ears. The knowledge of their fate causes the blood to drain from his face and he holds tight to Felix's hand. The pair make their way to the drinks table and each take a peppermint scented drink.
"Benji! Lux! Great to see you made it," a familiar voice exclaims.
Benji and Felix turn to see Lenora in a Santa style dress with red and white striped tights. For the first time since Benji has met her, her hair is down and loosely curled. The couple take their turn giving Lenora a hug and idly chat with her.
"You two look absolutely adorable. Why didn't we ever wear matching sweaters, Lux?" Lenora asks, feigning jealousy.
"Uh, I never knew you wanted to," Felix replies.
"I'm just joking, Feuerbach. The thought of be being a matching couple makes me break into a cold sweat. It's cute when you two do it though. Here let me take a picture for you."
Lenora takes a disposable camera out of her purse and positions them in the archway by the kitchen. She's about to take the photo when someone shouts.
"Hey Lux! Look up," a worker from the crowd cries, followed by kissy noises.
Benji and Felix look up above them and see a mistletoe hanging. Felix gives Benji a look as if to say "If you want to." With all eyes on them now, Benji stands on his toes and quickly places a small kiss on Felix’s lips. The onlookers react in a mixture of aws and sounds of discomfort. Satisfied, they return to their banter. That is, all except one. Bakula makes his way to where Felix and Benji are and wrinkles his face in disproval.
"I think we're going to be heading out now," Felix announces.
"Oh I don't think so," Bakula retorts, a smile stretches across his lips.
"Thank you for the invite, but I promised my mom I'd stop by tonight," Benji chimes in.
They begin to head to the door but are stopped by Bakula placing his hand on Felix's shoulder.
"I forgot to tell you the rules for the mistletoe. You see it's one thing if two preds end up under the mistletoe. But a pred and a prey? I think you can catch on where I'm going with this."
"We're leaving," a stern Felix says.
"So you don't want your bonus then? Don't bother coming in on Monday either."
"Sir, you can't be serious."
"You know I'm a man of my word. Now Lux, what's your decision?"
Felix glances down at Benji and reflexively swallows. Then he cups Benji's face and lowers his mouth to the level of Benji's ear.
"I took some neutralizers before we left in case I became tempted, like my sponsor suggested. You'll be safe."
Benji nods, closes his eyes, and tenses up as he waits for the series of events that he's now unfortunately grown accustomed to. Felix gently kisses Benji three times. Once on the forehead, then the cheek, and finally on the lips.
Mouth stretched wide, Felix and lowers it down over Benji’s head. Lenora goes to stop Felix but is held back by another worker.
Felix takes his first swallow. It had been so long since he last felt this sensation with Benji. The moment feels like a lifetime ago. Felix relishes in the sweet taste as his tongue feels Benji's soft skin. His legs nearly buckle as he takes the second swallow. All eyes are on him now in a hushed room.
Hands go to Benji’s back as Felix hungrily feels up and down the form that will soon be inside him. The wandering digits find home on either side of Benji and latch on as Felix hoists him up in the air.
With eager throat, Felix swallows again. Benji’s legs kick in panic from the new position and aide in the process of sliding him down. Felix wishes he could tell Benji to relax to make it easier for them both to get it over with, but another part of Felix enjoys the spectacle he's making.
Felix swallows again and groans as Benji's shoulders start to stretch their way down. Felix drops to his knees as he swallows once more and feels Benji begin to enter the hot chamber of his stomach.
Another swallow and only Benji’s lower half is left. Felix massages at his neck as the hips go past his teeth. The taut and warm skin of his throat feels electric under the touch.
The final swallows come with ease and Felix falls to all fours as he catches his breath. When the room stops spinning, and Felix is brought back down to earth, he hears the applause come from his audience. Bakula walks up to panting Lux and pats him on the shoulder.
"Good boy. You've earned it," the Supervisor says with a cool voice. He tosses down the envelope containing Lux’s bonus. "Merry Christmas."
A Heart Pangs fanficlet. First time I'll apologize for the characters possibly being ooc. All characters in this fic belong to @mmmleckerlecker
"Benji please. Benji stay with me. I need you." Felix sits at the base of a tree and cradles the limp and lifeless prey close to his chest.
Tears drip down his face and lightly fall onto Benji’s. Hastily Felix thumbs them off the growing cold cheek of his friend.
"I didn't mean to. I let you go. See, I had control- I have control. I promise it won't happen again. Fuck, I promise you never have to see me again too, to make sure it. Hell I wouldn't even blame you for not wanting to see me again. I'd do whatever as long as you just wake up."
As if on cue, a gasp for breath pulls itself from Benji’s core. Benji looks up at Felix, dazed, confused, and hurt.
"Why," is all Benji can muster to say.
"Oh thank God!" Felix exclaims as he pulls Benji closer to him.
He deeply inhales taking in Benji’s scent now covered in his own. A loud rumble comes from Felix’s middle causing him to contract. Several coughs rattle Lux’s lungs and he gags as he tried to catch his breath. Benji looks up at him in horror.
"I'm sorry," Felix apologizes as he places Benji next to him.
Focus Lux, you have control
A silence stretches between them like a canyon.
"I can't keep doing this Felix," Benji finally announces.
"Doing what exactly?"
"Pretending that it doesn't hurt knowing that in a second my best friend could turn and rather have me as a meal than alive."
"It's not like that Benji," Felix says, looking away from Benji.
"Look at me right now and tell me it's not. This is your doing." Benji reaches up to grab Felix’s face to force his gaze.
As he's done in habit , Felix grabs Benji wrist and holds it high above the prey's head. For the first time since releasing him, Felix realizes that Benji is shivering, and yet the fire behind his eyes still burns bright. Felix let's go of Benji and looks away in shame.
"You don't understand..." Felix starts as he wraps his arms around his stomach.
"Fuck you, Felix. You really think I don't understand how it feels to need something so badly it feels like I'll be ripped apart limb by limb with out it. We both found ways of coping with what happened that night. Thankfully I had people in my life that helped me break it. Sad I can't say the same about you though."
Felix grinds his teeth to stop himself from saying something he'd regret. Of course Benji was able to get help, he didn't have a job that gave him little chance to deny the offer to provide for his needs. He didn't have a reputation to keep up. He didn't have to go through it alone.
"I didn't know, " Felix finally states.
"I mean it's not like we've actually talked about anything other than Epomis or the Facility since I saw you again." Benji's teeth clatter between each word.
In the distance the two hear the sound of twigs snapping under the falling steps of several medium-sized animals.
"We should move to the car. I can even run the heat for a bit" Felix suggests.
"I'm not ready to be in an closed off space with you so soon. No offense."
"No I understand. But the coyotes might not. "
"Fine. But I'm going to sit in the back."
Felix nods and pushes himself to his feet, one hand reminds at his center and with the other he fishes out his keys. With a press of the button, the car's headlights briefly flash light onto the surrounding areas. Benji stands as well and as quickly as he can, moves to the back seat. Benji climbs in and curls into himself on the large seat.
Felix watches, still as the trees, and desperately fights the urge to chase after his greatest desire and put it back in it the place it will be most cherished. His stomach twists at the teasing thought resulting in Felix dropping to his knees for a moment. He forces himself to standing and follows after Benji. He can't let his favorite prey get too far. Felix opens the back door and lays behind Benji. He pulls Benji close to his stomach, where he should be. Of course Benji fits into him perfectly, as if the prey's entire purpose was to complete this pred. Benji's entire body stiffens as the pred nestles closer.
"I'm not going to hurt you," Felix assures Benji, "I just need to hold you. One last time."
Benji stays silent as he feels two arms wrap tighter around him like a boa constricter. He needs him closer. The added warmth is the only thing that stops Benji from protesting. Another pang strikes Felix as he digs his nails into Benji’s arms to combat it. Together their breath matches pace as their eyes drift close. For this brief moment in time they're not predator and prey but two twin flames dimming into the night.
Hi it was international asexuality day yesterday, so I decided to draw some fan art of one of my favorite ace characters, Benji Marotta from @mmmleckerlecker 's Heart Pangs! 🖤🤍💜
