So last night I was able to see one of my best friends that I haven't seen in awhile and I'm not over exaggerating when I say that last night was probably the best night of my life.
Nick and I have been friends for three years now and we have kind of have a on/off relationship because his girlfriend doesn't like me. She doesn't want him to see and hangout with me which really really sucks because I love Nick so fucking much. So I won't talk to him for days because his girlfriend isn't comfortable with him hanging out with me, and I know he loves her even though she's extremely controlling so there really isn't anything I can do about it. The rest of my friends are just as sweet as he is to me but it's just different with him. Like I have no idea of how to explain it because people always just assume that I have a "crush" on him but really it's just that he pays attention to me. He knows when something is wrong and he checks up on me even when he's not supposed to because of his girl friend. And even when I'm having a good day he'll tell me, "One day all of your days will be as good as this and better." And just stuff like that, I can't even express in words how much I appreciate him.
So last night I got to spend the night with him, which doesn't happen as often as before unfortunately. But we had a really good time. We smoked a couple of bowls in his shed, then later we went to his hut that he built in the forest and we smoked more and we got to catch up, and talk about dumb things, and sing songs that make us sad, and run through the woods and, draw each other pictures, and his body got so cut up from running through the brier because he was only in his boxers that when we met up again he was drenched in his own blood and the look on his face was just so so happy the all I could do was laugh and walk him back to his house to help him clean up. And I guess the reason I'm so emotional right now is because even though we don't see each other as often as before, we still act like there was never a huge gap between conversations and seeing each other, we always pick up right were we left off.
This was just me venting but I hate that intimate relationships always seem to get in the way of friendships. I just want my happy Nick back. I really miss him.
