summary : min needs to think about what she says, or sheâll taint another friendship.
characters : kang minjung , son yongmi , zhao honghui (briefly) , elizabeth park , na jaemin (nct) (mentioned)
genre : i guess angst idk
warnings : swearing , verbal arguing , damn they kinda mean to each other . iâm not good at writing people arguing i have Never been in a fight Ever but i tried
words : 1.7k
[ july 2020, 1:23 pm, solar dorms ]
âwhatâre you smiling at over there?â
yongmi looked up from her spot on her armchair, curled up in a blanket to meet minjungâs eyes across the room, standing near the entrance to the kitchen. she shrugged, looking back down at her phone with a huge grin on her face. âjust a new friend,â she replied, although she was very obviously blushing.
â...just a new friend?â minjung took a sip of the glass of water she had in her hand, she wasnât buying it. she knew yongmi.
yongmi sighed in defeat, a grin still plastered on her face, âookay, i think sheâs pretty. thatâs it!â
âwell fuck, whatâs stopping you from asking her out?â minjung asked.
âcrippling anxiety,â yongmi replied simply.
minjung paused for a beat before speaking again, âwhatâs the worst that could happen?â
âuh... she says no?â
âso what? itâs worth a shot.â
yongmi frowned, knitting her eyebrows together, âitâd be so embarrassing if she said no. i donât even know if she likes girls!â
âseriously, what do you have to lose.â
â...my dignity?â
minjung didnât understand yongmi sometimes. what was so hard about asking someone out? despite the fact that, technically, it seemed they should be the best of friends and inseparable due to their closeness in age and how they trained together for years, but it wasnât always like that. sure, they were close friends, and had been since they met, but they were complete opposites, and it was honestly a bit of a mixed bag. they didnât get each other as well as they used to.
she sighed, âitâs not that hard, just get over yourself and do it. thatâs basically how i got with jaemin.â
âyouâre failing to realize that not everyone is as blunt as you,â yongmi said, looking down at her nails, âyouâll just go up to someone and be like, hey, letâs hook up- or whatever, iâm not the type of person that does that.â
âokay-â minjung wrinkled her nose, âfirst of all i donât say it like that. do i need to give you lessons on how to ask someone out, are you that lonely?â
âyouâve just never had to deal with anxiety, you should be grateful. you should also be a little more considerate, youâre being a little rude.â
âam i being rude? or are you just being sensitive?â
yongmi was standing now, completely disregarding her blanket that fell to the ground when she stood up. âcan you not be nice to me for once?â
âmaybe i would if you werenât so annoying about it,â minjung stood her ground when yongmi began walking towards her.
âmaybe itâs not all me,â yongmi snapped, âmaybe you should stop being such a bitch.â
woah, okay, that took a sharp turn. minjung rolled her eyes, trying to mask the fact that she was absolutely flabbergasted that yongmi, arguably one of the softest and most kindhearted people she knew, would ever call her a bitch to her face. such a word wasnât even in her vocabulary most of the time. âwho says iâm the one being a bitch?â
âwoah, cat fight!â the two girls snapped their heads to the side to see honghui in the hallway exiting his room, still with his hand on the knob watching the two girls argue with a look of almost excitement on his face. âwhatâs going on out here? should i get snacks, how long is this gonna go on for?â
minjung scowled at him, âfuck off.â
âsorry,â honghui laughed, going back into his room, âcontinue.â
minjung sighed, not at all phased by honghuiâs sudden appearance and just as sudden disappearance, âanyways, i believe we left off on you calling me a bitch.â
yongmi laughed, but it sounded lifeless and forced, not like her usual laugh (that yongmi herself absolutely hated), âyeah, because you canât seem to understand that some people have a different mindset than you do! you do this all the time, too, itâs probably because your parents let your spoiled ass get away with whatever you wanted.â
âokay, what weâre not gonna do is bring my parents into a conversation that has nothing to do with them,â minjung spat, walking closer to yongmi, who stayed right where she was, despite minjungâs assumption that sheâd back up as soon as she started inching closer.
âi mean, theyâre the ones to blame for how you act. look at me, iâve never had to face a minor inconvenience in my life, i have a super cute boyfriend and i talk about guys like they fall to their knees whenever i approach them-â
yongmi stopped when minjung raised her hand like she was about to slap her, but stopped when she saw how hard she made the former flinch. when she stood up straight again, minjung noticed yongmi had tears in her eyes, and she remembered how much yongmi hated confrontation. regardless, she held her head up high and continued.
âthe fact that youâre resorting to hitting instead of a civil discussion-â yongmi sniffed, blinking rapidly as she didnât want minjung to see her cry. âthat really says a lot about you. why canât we be the way we used to-â she cut herself off early when her voice broke. she stormed down the hall to her bedroom, but not before whacking the glass minjung had in her hand, spilling water down the front of her white tshirt.
âhey!â minjung called after her, âjaeminâs supposed to be coming later! iâm wearing a black bra you can literally see everything-!â
âiâm sure heâd love to see that!â yongmi called before slamming her door, leaving minjung standing in the living room with a soaked shirt and a dumbfounded expression.
it saddened yongmi more than she could ever get out in words that minjung wasnât the same girl that sheâd known when they were both 14 and joining a company for the first time, minjung with no experience in dancing whatsoever and yongmi barely even speaking korean. they bonded over how inexperienced they both were.
yongmi could recall a time where they snuck out of the building one afternoon while they were on break, and just walked down the streets of downtown seoul without a care in the world. they were so excited when the final lineup for solar was announced, especially considering the night prior they stayed up way past their curfew to stargaze in the roof of the smk building, convinced they would never see each other again because minjung was guaranteed a place in the final lineup and at that time, they thought yongmi wasnât.
yongmi tried to make herself feel better by reminding herself that friendship wasnât always forever, but she couldnât help but miss that sense of comfort and nostalgia behind minjungâs warm eyes when she stared into them.
âwhat the hell is your problem?â elizabeth spat, bursting into minjungâs room, causing her to jump, leaving a mascara smear on the side of her face from where she was trying to do her makeup.
âwhatâs going on this time?â minjung sighed, pulling a wipe out of her makeup bag to rub off where sheâd messed up.
elizabeth rounded the side of her bed, bending down behind the mirror minjung held in front of her face to do her makeup with to look her in the eye, âi found yongmi crying in our room earlier, and when i asked her what was wrong, she asked me if she was too sensitive. she said you said that to her.â
minjung shrugged, purposely, or so elizabeth assumed, avoiding her eye, âshe was being sensitive.â
âfucking-â elizabeth grabbed the mirror minjung was holding right out of her hand and stood up straight again, âlook at me!â
âgive it!â minjung whined like a little kid, holding her arms out in an attempt to reach it, âjaemin is coming over soon!â
elizabeth held the mirror behind her back and continued, âyâall canât ever get along, and iâm fucking sick of it, someone needs to knock some sense into you.â
minjung rolled her eyes for what felt like the fiftieth time that day as elizabeth continued, âyou guys argue over the stupidest things and you need to learn how to get along soon or itâs gonna look bad on the rest of us.â
âshe called me a bitch,â minjung said defensively, only provoking elizabeth to continue her rant.
âmaybe because you were being a bitch. you donât want to admit it, but youâre spoiled, and youâre a brat, and honestly? youâre abusing you title as the leader. yongmi would be a better leader than youâve ever been if you donât smarten up.â
from the look on minjungâs face, you wouldâve thought elizabeth had slapped her. but she managed to get out, âlook, i donât know why everyone is taking her side all of a sudden-â
âbecause youâre the one in the wrong! you need to quit acting like youâre always the victim and like the whole world revolves around you. sure, yongmi may have said a few mean things earlier, but sheâs been putting up with it from you for god knows how long.â
âsheâs-â
âyou two are complete opposites. i get that, you donât think the same, but you two used to be so close! i donât know what happened between before we debuted and now but you need to start being more considerate and stop acting like a brat.â
âi-â
âstop trying to make excuses and smarten up already!â
silence. a deafening silence that made minjungâs ears ring. was she really as mean as yongmi and elizabeth said she was? so mean that they were starting to think she was abusing her title as a leader? sheâd never admit it, but shit, that cut deep. she did miss how close she used to be with yongmi, she missed it a lot, she missed how genuine and sweet she was, something she wasnât all that used to. sure, she loved her family but sheâd never been as close with them as the relationships sheâd developed outside of her own home. yongmi has brought her a sense of comfort she wasnât all that used to, so what exactly happened?
âhave fun with jaemin later,â elizabeth said bitterly, tossing the mirror back onto minjungâs bed and closing the door softly as she left. minjung thought it probably wouldâve been better if she slammed it.
smke held global auditions in 2017. beth auditioned and made it in, and since she was already moving to korea, once she got there she started her training almost immediately.
she was a trainee for 2 years.
in the solar dorm, beth, leda, and posie share a room.
she didnât get an english name from leda because she already has one.
fans say she looks like a rabbit.
sheâs an only child.
she can play guitar and ukulele.
she originally auditioned to be a rapper, but her rapping often gets overshadowed by the other members.
one of her favourite hobbies is doing makeup. she practices makeup looks on the members all the time, especially leda and mj.
she has astigmatism, and is basically blind without glasses or contacts on.
she wears contacts on stage, but when sheâs off stage she wears her glasses.
sheâs the resident dumbass. every group needs one.
she talks in english probably more than she does korean even though sheâs fluent in both she just think talking in english makes her cooler
âIâM FROM ILLINOIS BABEY!!!!â
biggest txt fan girl (sheâs like,,, in love with beomgyu but doesnât want to admit it)
sheâs another members that constantly goes viral for breathing
thereâs this one specific outfit she wore once on stage. it was this cute little thing with a leather skirt and since then everyone knows her as âleather skirt girlâ
never knows whatâs happening ever
she may not be smart,, but girlie is savage
no one knows how she comes up with all her funny ass comebacks and responses to literally everything. guess itâs just a galaxy brain monkey brain thing
âiâm american of course i know english stoopidâ
beth five minutes later: âyo you know that thing you write with?? no not a pen, the other one, the one you can erase.â
totally has a tiktok account but wonât tell fans what it is or if she even uploads
she knows every dance too and thinks she should be on the dance line because of it
*does the woah* âam i good enough for the dance line yet???â
tbh she probably would be on the dance line if there wasnât already four dancers