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Pieces

I am allowed pieces of people. Slivers of their life wink at me, offering glimpses into the entirety of their being. These shards are sharp and slice through my flesh if I’m not gentle enough, and when I hold them in my hands, they create gashes that bleed like hot tears, rolling down my cheeks. They leave scars on my skin, faint memories of what once was and what will never be.

- Bethany Joy written in 2017

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The Horizon

I am no longer rushing, running, to and from the things I don’t need, as the lazy winds of your tongue shifts its path across my skin, pooling me into a state of bliss. I float in the calm of your breeze, listless as time passes trough the slow expanse of your sky.

We meet at the horizon of our bodies, intertwined. However, I am known to drown and you to fly. We guide ourselves in different directions.

These tears rain down and fill me up because I know I have found my match as the air that surrounds us sparks with electricity but friction builds between us. If only I could hold you the way I want and touch you the way you do me, without bringing you down, we could take on this world.

- Bethany Joy written in 2017

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It’s just another lie.

Another heartbreak.

Another lie as I give and give and give

myself away for the same cycle to repeat itself.

I’m ignored, abandoned, left to rot

this pain away.

My joy only lasts a flicker of a second

but it’s sorrow that burns in my soul.

- Bethany Joy

written in 2017

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Masked

You wear a mask so tight and well others believe the face you show them, unaware of how thin your skin really is. We are all only flesh and bone and the only things that make us different are the choices we make. You lie, and I do too; but not when it comes to my integrity and the people I love. I am an open book, this face you see is mine.

-Bethany Joy written in 2016

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Chasm

He’ll never know my heart like I thought he would. I’ll never get to love him like I wanted. This chasm in the middle of my chest gapes open and steals my breath. Constantly, I’m shoveling other boys, the drinks they buy, the lies they tell, and that soft caress I can pretend is yours, into the void, but it isn’t the same and I fear I’ll be breathless forever. - Bethany Joy written in 2015

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Catch

Connect the stars that mold us, I’d like to be a part of you. Fall fast and hard– know I am here– I’ll catch you if you need me to.

-Bethany Joy written in 2005

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Zombie

You created this monster.

Mindless wandering, ever searching a craving of human flesh. It is never satisfied, it has no feelings, doesn’t care who it has to hurt in its endeavors to replace what is rotting. This creature is horrifying, decaying, continuously feeding, infecting, spreading this disease to those who come too close. There is no cure for this being, no heart.

But once she was whole, human, and happy, and blended with the rest of us. Unaware was she, this being, of the heartache that would erase the memory of what life was like before. There was love, and smiles, and a hopeful future.

Once, this being was beautiful but, now, lies left her broken; marred her, changed her, darkened her. Blinded by regret, haunted by loneliness, taunted by pain. You poisoned her with your filth and stole her heart. In return, she torments others continuing the cycle, spreading the sickness.

And you, you created this monster.

-Bethany Joy written in 2010

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I dream big and fall hard but this life I live is worth it.