Blog/life update
Don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere. Despite my best efforts I haven’t been able to get away from tumblr (I’ve been here for like 7 or 8 years???? god). I’m still here and still having fun.
I just wanted to give a little apology and life update.
I’ve been going through a bit of a rough time since about the second half of 2015, but I think last year was the absolute worst of it. My sporadic activeness on here has been a reflection of that.
I know that lots of people on here have kept up with my blog regardless (and hello to all the newcomers!), and I’ve gotten some really lovely messages and post replies from people on here over the last year or so that brought me a lot of joy. If that’s you, then I really truly thank you, and I’m very sorry for not replying. When I’m struggling, my ability to communicate one-on-one is the thing that really goes out the window - as a little anxiety-reducing coping thing. Messaging just gives me a lot of social anxiety, especially when I’d really like to both make and keep some friends on here and not make a total fool of myself.
I’m not tagging anyone, because it has been a while for most of those interactions and I’m not even sure you would remember. But just know that it meant a lot, and if in the future you get a reply from me for a message that you sent some ridiculous amount of time ago, don’t be alarmed.
Just to let people know where I’m at for the moment, I’m doing better, but still in the process of trying to get on top of everything I let slide over the last 3 years or so. And also the things I let slide just by virtue of being overseas for 6 months in the middle of it all. As you can imagine, it’s taking some time, and I’m still prone to slip ups. The important thing is I’m trying.
On a lighter note, I have gone back to uni this year after graduating mid-way through last year (for reference, the Australian academic year lines up with the calendar year). I’m currently doing my honours in anthropology as a bridge into future post-grad. It involves both coursework and thesis, so I’m pretty busy and more than a little stressed. But I really love it too. Apart from “starfleet captain”, being an anthropologist is my dream career.
I’m still trying to keep up my blog as much as I can, and it does provide some much needed pleasure time that doesn’t burn out my brain. I have a lot of posts in my drafts that are part of my stuff to get on top on, including some more aesthetic posts. I also have some fanfics in the works that I think I started back in 2015 that I’d like to get done. I think the fic I’ve been most inspired to finish lately has been my reasonably sized Harry & B’Elanna friendship exploration fic which has a special place in my heart. If anyone is interested I might do up a little list of stories I have planned and people can let me know what they’d most like to see. I haven’t posted a fic anywhere since 2009, and that old stuff has nothing to do with my current interests, nor should it ever see the light of day (bar one exception). But my writing has improved a lot, and I even have some fairly good Castle fics I was writing in 2012 for me to finish one day.
My inner perfectionist is holding me back a lot, as I always find something wrong with what I’m creating, but we’ll get there. So keep an eye out for those things. As always, encouragement is always welcome. ❤
~ klingonne / betterzoid / janewaytookmycoffeecastle (for the long-timers)