First time (A Jaeyoung x Reader fic)
A sequel to this
A/N: Again English is not my mother tongue even tho its my second language. So please bear with me if my English or my writing is horrible and weird . Plus, this first time series will be slightly different as it continues from a previous idea. Also warning really long post : smut, scars, and oral.
This piece can stand on its own but I recommend to read the prequel for a better understanding of the setting.
ok without further ado, here we go.
So it has been 8 months ever since you and Jaeyoung started dating. Due to work life, the pace of your relationship leans to slow and steady. You two do go to movies, do window shopping, casually hanging out at each other’s apartment. Even if the two of you stay overnight, Jaeyoung will keep distance by sleeping on the couch, quote his word “Let’s not rush things for now.”
You two did not had much chance to explore/progress into steamy skinship. Its just more on holding hands,cuddling, kissing on each other’s cheeks and forehead. Notable mention that Jaeyoung loves to kiss your hand and when alone he loves to keep you close beside him.
Both of you did nearly did it once because the mood was right and both of you were immersed into each others’ kisses thanks to a bit of alcohol. Only to be interrupted by your family ringing your phone. Feeling sorry about it, but also realizing the consequences should your family did not call you. Yea, looks like you are still traumatized from what happened in previous relationships.
Jaeyoung on the other hand, just pats your head and smiles. “It ok, I don’t think we should do it on a whim either.”
Then some days later, you two were assigned to participate a seminar at another city, and the last day of the seminar happens to be Friday. During lunch break, Jaeyoung suggested that you two should extend the stay and have a nice weekend at the other city. You felt that you two did not hang out recently and you agreed with him.
“Uhmm, Y/N?” Jaeyoung tries to bring up something from his mind. “What do you think about we sharing a bed throughout the weekend?”
You are focusing at munching your food while scrolling your phone about hotel recommendations (helping Jaeyoung to choose one out) and just bluntly reply, “Sure, I guess? Its cheaper anyways.”
To your surprise, Jaeyoung clears his throat. And it gains your attention, so you lower your phone and take a quick glance of your boyfriend. Jaeyoung shifts towards you by pulling his chair closer to yours.“Y/N? That was me suggesting we should advance one step further during the weekend? You know, one bed?”
“Oh dear,” You flustered and then you suddenly feel apologetic for not getting the cue “My bad. I was-”
You could not finish your words as Jaeyoung just looks at you affectionately with a smirk in his face. You could feel your cheeks are flushed.His smile widens as he is content seeing you being flustered and he pats you on your shoulder hinting you to take it easy. Before he left for meeting, he lets you decide on the hotel room for the weekend. He will know your decision by the type and number of the room you booked.
Fast forward to weekend, you two moved to a king size bed room. (Yes its the same hotel and you both were in single bed room and rooms are far apart). You are waiting for Jaeyoung while he showers and you are drying your hair. You are in your usual T-shirt and ankle length sleeping pants, the comfortable attire. You do feel dressing up intentionally felt very off from your personality.
You inhale deeply as you glance at the king sized bed. You wonder if you really made the right decision. You know Jaeyoung is different from your exes (he also proves to be) and you know you should not compare, but deep down you are scared. WHAT IF IT DID NOT WORK OUT? It would be a lie that you did not get flashbacks of people used to love pointing out your scars being horrendous and disgusting.
The bathroom door clicks and Jaeyoung steps out with bathrobe on him. He smiles awkwardly explaining that was not intentional and he forgot to take his clothes with him. The cloth that ties his bathrobe is loosely tightened and you can glimpse his collarbone and toned chest clearly. You saw his upper body naked before when hanging out with company colleague during company trip in Bali, but this time is different, his relationship status with you is different and the situation is different. You reply him that you did not mind but you are obviously avoiding his gaze. He notices that you are behaving weird immediately.
Jaeyoung reaches out and places his hand on your cheek, you jolt a bit as his actions caught you off guard. “You know, if you don’t want to...”
“No, I am fine.” You place your hand on his and look him with a determined look.”I am just worried, are you really sure that you are not going to freak out?”
“Looks like I gotta prove it through my actions then..” Jaeyoung let out a sigh and a weary grin when he finally understands what are your concerns. His other hand reaches to the other cheek of yours and pulls you closer to him,
His lips touches yours gently. Seeing you did not push him away even though your hands are at his chest, he starts to give your lower lip a few soft nibble while kissing the corners of your lips. Your eyes are closed and trying your best to give him the best response.
And out of a sudden, Jaeyoung lift you up by giving you a bridal carry and then gently puts you down on the bed. He then gets a lube and some condoms from his bag before joining you on bed. You breathe sharply to calm yourself while watching Jaeyoung hovers on top of you. The loose collar of his bathrobe drapes down and you can his torso and his abs even better now. Your hands are in front of your chest clenching on the fabric of your T shirt.
“I won’t be rough, I promise.” Jaeyoung grabs one of your hand and kisses your knuckles like how he did it usually. Not knowing how to respond, you only nod as a sign of consent. Jaeyoung just chuckles and lands a kiss on your lips again.
The hand he was holding a while ago, is now placed beside your head, and fingers tightly interlocking with Jaeyoung’s. And as Jaeyoung deepens his kiss, you throw your other arms and wrap around his neck.
He is progressing with you slow but sensual. Its the second time he used his tongue, you can tell that he is not trying hard not be aggressive towards you. You respond to him by copying him and letting out soft moans, as a reward, he cups your face with his another hand and caress your jawline affectionately. He pauses occasionally to let you catch your breath and using that opportunity to check if you are doing alright.
After several exchanges of kisses, you are breathing heavily and looked dazed. Your face, ears and neck are flushed red. Jaeyoung curse in his mind when he sees you being submissive. He lets go of the hand that was still holding to yours, and strips his bathrobe off, revealing only his underwear. You notice his bulge and you begin wonder if it is going to hurt later.
“I should take them off as well.” You push yourself up while softly murmurs and grabs the hem of your shirt. Jaeyoung only fixes his gaze on you while watching you fully undress everything (Including your bra if your are fem reader). Your scars finally fully revealed themselves in front of him. You turn to face your boyfriend and observe his facial expression, trying to read his thoughts on your scars.
Without saying anything, Jaeyoung reaches out and lightly traces a part of your scar ranges from your shoulder to your chest. His touch is light as if he is scared of hurting you if he applied force on his fingertips. You try to keep still not to shiver or to talk weird stuff that will backfire. You eyes moving back and forth from his face and the sheets.
“It really amazes me how you went through and endure all of this with a strong heart.” The man in front of you breaks the silence. “I wish I could exchange all the pain and consequences you have been through but...”
The “But” caught your attention and your eyes fix on his.
“I know what I am saying are just pretty words, you must have heard them plenty already.” he continues while moving his hand to your cheek, caressing your cheek with his thumb.
You break into a smile and shake your head. “They normally freak out when they sees my scars, let alone suggesting to bear the pain for me if they could.” When you finished, Jaeyoung pulls you closer and pins you down back to bed again.
“Their loss.” Jaeyoung hisses, you agree with him by laughing at his words. He kisses you on the side of your neck before resting his forehead on your chest. His arms are supporting his weight and resting beside your shoulders. He mumbles. “Thank you for trusting me, Y/N.”
The moment you heard him thanking you, you could not help but tearing up. You bite your lower lip, enduring it and hope he does not find out. You silently gulped before you kiss the top of his head and enjoy the smell of the hotel shampoo. Jaeyoung then pushes himself up and asks you if you are ok with him having his way on you. You kiss him on the corner of his lip and tell him to go ahead.
Jaeyoung advances by kissing your collarbone and chest, also leaving a few soft bites here and there on your skin, scarred and unscathed. He licks the outline of your ear and neck while praising you. Your hands find their way to his shoulders, completely surrender yourself to him
The moment his hand touches your waist and snakes upwards to your chest, you unconsciously call out his name. Jaeyoung slight lifts his head to check on you. Knowing you are not trying to stop him, he progresses. At a slow pace he strokes your nipple with his thumb and gently nibbling the other. You breathe out moans as he changes his pace of his touch and when add a bit of force when he nibbles your skin. While at it, his other hand lightly traces some part of your scars.
That hand of his comes to your thigh, and he slowly shift his hand to your inner thigh. You tense up a little as things are getting dangerous. He picks up your signal, so he did not progress further and moves his hand away.
His lips move away from your chest and come contact with your lips. The kiss you both are sharing is warm and devout. You wrap your arms around his neck as if you don’t want him to break it off just yet.
The hand which was stroking your chest a while ago also move upwards and lingers around your shoulder and arm. The way he caresses you as if he is giving you assurance.
Once he felt you are much relaxed, Jaeyoung moves his free hand to your thigh again. You are too focused on the kiss to notice until his fingers are awfully near your private part, making you tremble due to surprise and breaks off the kiss. “It’s ok, I am not going to hurt you.” Jaeyoung soothes you with his words before he presses his lips on yours again.
“I am glad.” says Jaeyoung as he confirms himself that you are unmistakably wet for him. “Maybe we don’t need lube at all?” Out of embarrassment you hide yourself behind your hands. Jaeyoung kisses your forehead and he notifies you that he will be touching you more.
He starts to stroke and nibble your chest again while his other hand at your private part is working hard on giving you pleasure. You never experience of being touched like this, you are embarrassed and your brain is overloaded by new sensations. All you could do were either calling out his name and letting out moans and squirm when he touches your sensitive spots.
Hearing you doing your best responding towards his actions Jaeyoung moves downwards. Your back arch upwards as he kisses a trail of scar near your stomach. Your hand reach out to find his and he grips yours firmly once both your fingers touched.
Jaeyoung then bring his head near your thigh and starts making you feel good with his mouth. With the addition of his mouth, your moans and whimpers are louder than before, you cannot escape as Jaeyoung is holding you in place by pressing down one of your thigh firmly and his other hand is still grasping your hand tightly.
As pleasure rushes throughout your body and brain your free hand keep wandering about. One moment you are tugging Jaeyoung’s hair, another moment you are clenching on the sheets, and the next moment, you are biting your finger hoping to lower down the number of your moans.
Then you feel an weird urge and you beg him to stop. Jaeyoung, upon hearing you, pushes his face backwards but increases the pace of his fingers. You don’t need to open you eyes to know that his gaze are fixed on you.
As you had your first climax, Jaeyoung climbs forwards and leans closer to you. He kisses you on your cheek, praising you.
“Jaeyoung...” You call out his name after a few heavy pants.
“Hmm?”
“You don’t need to be that attentive.” You adjust your breath and muster up all your courage before you look him in the eye and whisper out your thoughts. “I almost died of embarrassment.”
“You mean I made you felt good.” It is funny when he says it in a straight face.
“Whatever, just...” You let out a weary chuckle and try hard to not break the mood. “Do me.”
Jaeyoung is surprised at your straightforwardness, “Now that’s not fair.” he frowns as he says. Seeing his desperate face, you suddenly felt proud of yourself for having an upperhand at the moment. He then lifts your hip. rests your hip on his thighs and now he kneels in between your legs. You watch him quietly as expose his bulge from his underwear and putting on condom. He reaches out for the lube and apply some on his length.
“Relax.” he advised as he guides himself to your entrance. The unfamiliar warmth and slight pain spreads as he pushes himself into you. Knowing your personality well, even though you give him permission to continue, Jaeyoung slows down every time he sees you frown.
It took a while but he finally has all of him inside you. He let out a assured sigh. “Let’s stay like this for a while ok?” He suggests, and you nod. “Damn, its hot.” Jaeyoung mutters.
Out of curiosity (and since its easier now for you), you reach out to touch his abs. It seems ticklish for him and he giggles a bit. “I can work on it more if you like.” says he while looking at you affectionately. You smile and shake you head and tell him you prefer how it is right now. He takes your hand and kiss on the back of your palm as a gesture to thank you.
Then he reaches out his hands to caress your chest area. You respond the way he imagined while looking into his eyes. He seems satisfied and with playful mood, he increases the sensuality of his touch. He chuckles and comments on your flushed cheeks. You grab his hands to stop him and tell him to move.
Seeing you are more comfortable now, he tries to move a bit. As Jaeyoung thrusts into you, you cooperated by adjusting your breathing to match his movements.His low groans sometimes loud and sometimes not. Then, to both of your surprise, he hit a spot of yours and you let out a moan sweeter than before. It caught you off guard but your reaction says it all. Jaeyoung chuckles and whispers, “Bingo.”
You wanted to process what had happened but Jaeyoung did not gave you the chance. He pushes and spreads your thighs wider and continues his thrusts steadily. He even has a victorious smile on his face while enjoying the view of you giving into ecstasy. Unconsciously, Jaeyoung licks his lips.He then leans forward to kiss you again. His weight is supported by his forearm resting at both sides of your head.
You pat at his shoulder as a sign you need to breathe. Jaeyoung breaks off the kiss and buries his head to the curve of your neck and shoulder. His pants and groans near your ear drives you crazy. You can only repeat his name as if it is the only word you know.
“Y/N, you need to stop riling me up.” Jaeyoung grumbles.
Then Jaeyoung stops his thrusts and he pushes himself up. He grabs your arms and pulls you up. You are now sitting on him. His arms wrap tightly around your back, once he had you secure in place, he resumes his thrusts. Not only he reaches even deeper but also with this new angle he certainly hits you on the sweet spot every time he pushes himself into you. You have lost your ability to make sense of everything, you can only cling to his shoulders and whimper the name of your boyfriend.
His hands even though holding you firmly, they have the leisure to roam around your back, feeling your scars with his fingertips. Embarrassment returns to your cheeks and ears again and you beg him to stop.
“Why?” he whispers into your ears.
Not thinking clearly, you reply him by saying, “They are disgusting.”
“No they are not.” says your partner while landing kisses on the scar at your shoulder. “I love them because I love you.”
“Please, don’t..” You try to speak what is in your mind but they disappeared in between your moans.
“I am not...lying.” Jaeyoung mumbles in between his groans as well. “I am not, leaving you... just because of your scars.”
You tear up as you heard him, not knowing you are unconsciously repeating “I love you.” into his ears. It riles him up.
He bends forward with you in his arms and you are now back lying on the sheets. Jaeyoung speeds up while holding you close and you unconsciously cross your legs around his waist.
Your arms wrap around his neck, with a little force, you pull him down and share a kiss with him.
As you both climaxed, Jaeyoung breaks off the kiss and let out several satisfied groans near your ear before he pushes himself out from you. He immediately checks if you are alright. You have not recover from the shock of the ecstasy yet, you are beet red from your face to your chest, you are still gasping for air and your legs are jolting. Your lower body is wet and messy. Your condition left Jaeyoung astounded, and he began to wonder if he had gone overboard. “Oh my god, I am sorry.” he hurriedly pour a glass of water, help you sit up and apologies. You rest your weight on his chest as you take the glass of water from him. You re hydrate yourself once your breathing calmed a little.
“I am fine Jaeyoung, just a bit tired.” you assure him as he is looking really worried. Without a word, Jaeyoung hugs you tightly. You raise your hand and cup his cheek, with a smile you add “Thank you for everything.”
Jaeyoung take your hand and kisses your palm. He kisses your forehead and says “Now let’s get you cleaned up and let’s have some rest.”
-END-
A/N : I am sorry that this took really really long time. Several times I was frustrated at I could not give Jaeyoung the best scenario that fits his personality well hence I keep going back and forth editing it.