Thalia, ten years ago,was a soft edge girl with smiling lips and a void in her chest. Today, the void remains but her edges are no longer soft and she keeps smiles like secrets, of which she has many.
I. The perfect life Alaster had given her was charmed to start with, those long ten years prior. Thalia did feel a dart of guilt any time she saw a remnant of her old life but she couldn't say the new one wasn't at least somewhat enjoyable. She owned an estate and could afford the education she had dreamed of. Even if the sisterhood that was the furies wasn't wholly inviting, she was a part of it. The satisfaction Thalia thought she would feel wasn't there though. She had everything and it wasn't enough.
II. Thalia had breezed through college. It had been one of the few things that kept her sane, from slipping into a dark place of thought. New life or old, cooking was always a comfort for Thalia and now she had a degree in it. Her hands had become rougher from the constant whisking and kneading and accidental burning. Callouses on her hands felt like some kind of accomplishment.
III. Head chef was definitely a title Thalia could get behind. Ordering people around the kitchen wasn't easy to begin with but she got used to it. If people called her bossy, well, it was a small price to pay to have the job of her dreams. This sentiment made Thalia think back to when she had first used this logic five years ago. She nearly burned her hand on the stove top as she wondered as she often did if it had been worth it.
IV. Money became something for common people years ago. It didn't seem important when you were practically drowning in it. Thalia’s first year as head chef, though thrilling, didn't fill the black hollow in her chest. She sought out some new thrill, found it in the people who desired to be around the almost plastic perfection of her life. Thalia welcomed them in with open arms, happy to have the company, for a price. Tell me your secrets, she would whisper, and you can have whatever you wish.
V. She kept a book of them, the secrets. The pages were filled with ink black looping script. Out of kindness, Thalia left the names out. There was no intention to use them for blackmail or anything of the like. Having these secrets had produced closer relationships in Thalia’s life, a thing she had craved since childhood. And when the house was quiet and the loneliness and guilt came knocking, Thalia would pull the book from under the mattress and read it. It was a reminder that she wasn't the only one who had done whatever it took to get what she wanted.











